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Isabel Allende on love, death, magic realism and her new book, My Name is Emilia Del Valle

Isabel Allende on love, death, magic realism and her new book, My Name is Emilia Del Valle

International bestselling writer Isabel Allende is late to our interview, but only by a few minutes.
When the 82-year-old Chilean-American novelist appears on the video call, she has her phone to her ear and is thanking her son for helping her figure out the meeting pin.
The world's most widely read Spanish-language author — whose books have
I have to fight the urge to thank Allende for existing.
This is the woman whose debut novel was The House of the Spirits — the 1982 bestseller that started as a letter to her grandfather and evolved into a work of historical fiction that spans generations.
It's a stunning novel that chronicles the social and political unrest in an unnamed Latin American country, celebrates strong, multidimensional women, and melds the fantastical with the ordinary.
The book was also rooted in Allende's personal experiences: in 1973, the author was forced to flee Chile after her father's cousin, then-President Salvador Allende, was overthrown in a military coup.
Since The House of the Spirits, she's published 27 more books (both fiction and memoir),
And now she has a new book.
My Name is Emilia Del Valle
Allende's latest work is another piece of historical fiction following a strong woman; she says she keeps returning to the genre because the more she learns about the past, the more she understands the present — and the less upset she feels.
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I have lived long enough to know that everything passes as cycles, and everything passes.
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My Name is Emilia Del Valle is everything longtime fans look for in an Allende book.
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And she always writes strong women because she simply doesn't "know any woman who is weak or submissive".
"The ones who are victimised are not victims; they get up and they stand on their feet sooner or later."
The premise of My Name is Emilia Del Valle had been in her mind for a long time.
Set between the United States and Chile in the late 1800s, it's a coming-of-age novel, a love story, and a tale of the terror and tragedy of war — with parallels to the military coup that up-ended Allende's life.
"In both cases, there was a progressive president who had big opposition from the conservatives, and in the first case, in 1891, the armed forces divided and there was a civil war," Allende explains.
"In 1973, all the armed forces united against the government, so that became a dictatorship that lasted 17 years. In both cases, the president [killed himself] instead of going into exile.
"Those parallels were really interesting for me."
Wanting to tell the story as objectively as possible, Allende devised protagonist Emilia Del Valle, a driven young woman with many similarities to Allende.
Emilia never knew her Chilean aristocrat father or his birth country, instead growing up in the poor Mission District of San Francisco with her mother and beloved stepfather.
Despite the societal expectations of the era, marriage and motherhood hold no allure for Emilia, who instead dreams of becoming a writer.
Allende says My Name is Emilia Del Valle took her a year to write, and longer to research.
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Using a man's name, she begins penning dime novels packed with action and gore, about "bad women" who reject society's rules.
When that too grows dull, she starts writing newspaper chronicles for the local Daily Examiner, under that same pseudonym, and is eventually sent to Chile to cover the impending civil war — finally, as Emilia Del Valle.
Towards the end of the book, this story, ostensibly one of war and love, takes on the otherworldly feel Allende's writing is synonymous with.
Flashes of magic realism — supernatural happenings that are presented as ordinary occurrences, with minimal explanation — blur the line between realistic fiction and fantasy.
To Allende, magical realism is not a literary device
When asked why magic realism is integral to so many of her stories, Allende says: "Because I believe the world is a very mysterious place.
"I accept that there are many unexplainable things that have happened in my life, and I can write about that in a very natural way — it's not a literary device."
One such instance featured in Allende's 1994 memoir, Paula, a celebration of her daughter Paula Frías Allende's life and a meditation on dying and grief. In it, Allende wrote of finding a letter her daughter penned before she fell into a porphyria-induced coma in her late 20s, in which Paula appeared to have foreseen her untimely death.
Allende's 1994 memoir, written in honour of her daughter Paula (pictured), has been a source of strength for people in the throes of grief since it was published three decades ago.
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Allende thinks people often attribute the popularity of magical realism in Latin American storytelling to the idea that "Latin America is a particularly superstitious place".
But she disagrees with this categorisation.
"That idea that reason is what moves the world, science, mathematics, and that's it, is a very limited way of thinking, because there are many other ways of perceiving reality, like any poet can tell you.
"I live in the United States [where] people believe in crystals, in horoscopes, psychics, astrologers … They don't call it magic realism here, it's something else, it's new-age or whatever — but it's the same thing.
"Writers of colour have always had these elements, like Toni Morrison and Maya Angelou and so many others."
She says it's "a very European, white way of thinking" and white American writers have long dominated Western literature and fostered a negative perception of magical realism.
"When you say the word 'literature', you immediately assume it was written by a white man, and if somebody else has written it, you add an adjective. You say 'female writer'. You say 'young adult literature', 'African American literature' — always an adjective, and the adjective diminishes it. The real literature? White men wrote it.
"[But] that is changing because, of course, the world is changing … I think there is much more acceptance [of different voices] than before."
Allende, pictured in 1995 with her then-new book, Paula.
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There's a scene in My Name is Emilia Del Valle where Allende's protagonist is condemned to death and speaks of detaching from her body and floating in midair, "looking from above with a certain curiosity at the miserable woman lying on the floor". She then experiences visions of her loved ones, who come to say goodbye.
"I imagine that can happen," Allende says.
The writer believes life's extremes force us to consider things we never would otherwise.
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I am not a religious person at all. I hate all kinds of organised religion. However, when my daughter was dying — for a year she was in a coma — it was a year of desperate prayer, because there was nothing else.
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I tell her I know what she means. A little over a year ago, my best friend died a very similar death to Paula, just before her 29th birthday.
"Ay — exactly my daughter's age," Allende exclaims.
I wouldn't consider myself religious either, but I too succumbed at the end to desperate prayer and the search for meaning in the things I had no explanations for — things we'd call "magic realism" if they were found in the pages of a book.
"Let me show you…" Allende begins, then reaches around her computer for a framed black-and-white portrait of Paula.
"This is my daughter in October 1991, the year before she died," she says, brandishing the image with a mother's fierce pride.
Allende's next book is a memoir about aging and love, which the author found again in her 70s with New York lawyer Roger Cukras.
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As the end of our interview approaches, Allende tells me she has been thinking about death more than ever, now that she is so "very close" to it.
"Not in a morbid way, but in a very realistic way. It's checking in. This is going to happen."
Aging will be the focus of her next book, which she's currently writing. It will also explore the end of her second marriage, the time she spent single, and finding love once more; at 74, Allende married her third husband, New York lawyer Roger Cukras.
She says the love story at the heart of her upcoming memoir wouldn't be original in the slightest — were it not for the fact "it happened at a very old age".
"When other people [my age] are only thinking of cancer and death, I'm also thinking of romance," Allende laughs.
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But as she steps into being a mum herself, she sees a future where she gets to keep a hold of who she is. Jessie I'm being a mother in 2025, as opposed to in the 80s. And I won't be a mother of four. I have more resources. I live in a country that has so many wonderful resources for women going through pregnancy and going through a lot of mental health changes in the early years of motherhood. And in a society that is more open about encouraging women to talk about the practice, the state of being a mother. I'm very grateful for all of that. And I am in a relationship where my male partner doesn't believe in gendered roles. So I think it will be different. I hope it will. I hope it will be different. Yumi There is so much in our lives that we want to control but can't. We can't control finding the right person to fall in love with. Although, by God, we can try. We can't control the mysterious moment when a single sperm cell swims up to an egg and in that precise second dives in. Although, we can and do try to control that too. And we certainly can't control the random moment when the heartbeat of a fetus just stops. Jessie too formed a tough shell and a ferocity to cope with the world she grew up in and that served her. But she's learning to surrender control to the unpredictability of this messy life. She's softened into loving a good man. She's softened into letting her parents comfort her. And guess what? The truly awful parts? They were made way more bearable by sharing her pain with other women. So yet again, at the end of another Ladies We Need To Talk episode, I'm thinking about holding my ladies real close. And also staying away from sunsets. I have too many kids for that. You said that you like fighting adversity together with friends. The thing that I want to recommend is extreme bushwalking. What makes it extreme? Well, it's got to be hard. OK. And you need to carry all your shit on your back. Oh, OK. And then you need to camp overnight. And invariably, someone will hurt themselves or fall over or shit their pants. So we're talking about poo now. And then you overcome it together. And then you experience nature and sunsets and like food when you're so hungry. And it's incredible. Do you think that could ever be in your future? I'm not a fan of camping. Yeah, I can see it in your face. As soon as I see it, I was like, oh, she's out. I've Jessie lost it. I've lost Jessie. But everything outside of sleeping on a sleeping bag. Yes. Yumi I'll get I'll convert you. I'll drag you into my car. This podcast was produced on the lands of the Gundungurra and Gadigal peoples. Ladies, We Need To Talk is mixed by Ann-Marie de Bettencor. This episode was produced by Elsa Silberstein and Katie O'Neill. Supervising producer is Tamar Cranswick and our executive producer is Alex Lollback. This series was created by Claudine Ryan.

Jennifer Lopez looks unrecognisable in new film
Jennifer Lopez looks unrecognisable in new film

News.com.au

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  • News.com.au

Jennifer Lopez looks unrecognisable in new film

Jennifer Lopez has left fans stunned after debuting a striking new look – and many are saying they barely recognised her. The 55-year-old singer and actress shared a first look at her most theatrical role yet, starring as Ingrid Luna in Kiss of the Spider Woman, a new film adaptation of the 1993 Broadway classic. In the just-released trailer, Lopez is seen in two contrasting, era-defining looks – first appearing as a near-platinum blonde paired with a bold red lip and later with a sharply cut bob and spiky fringe. Hailed as, 'The role Jennifer Lopez was born to play,' the Jenny From the Block singer's looks are a far cry from her usual red carpet aesthetic. Set in Argentina in 1981, Kiss of the Spider Woman focuses on Luis Molina, a gay hairdresser who is imprisoned because of his sexuality. While in captivity, Molina fantasies about a glamorous siren named Ingrid Luna (Lopez) as he tries to escape his current reality. While the storyline is set against a backdrop of dictatorship and oppression, it unfolds largely through stylised fantasy – giving Lopez the chance to fully embody her love of glitz and glamour. Naturally, fans couldn't contain themselves over the star's bold transformation. 'OMG. I didn't even recognise her, she looks amazing!,' said one eager viewer. 'JLo deserves her Oscar,' said another. 'They could never make me hate you, JLo,' praised a third. Lopez and her ex-husband Ben Affleck made headlines earlier this year while finalising their highly-publicised divorce after less than two years of marriage. In an interview with Nikki Glaser last October, the singer revealed she was looking to find happiness within herself now. 'Being in a relationship doesn't define me. I can't be looking for happiness in other people. I used to say I'm a happy person, but was still looking for something for somebody else to fill.' Kiss of the Spider Woman will be in theatres October 10.

Ola Adelaide! Spanish Film Festival set to spice up winter
Ola Adelaide! Spanish Film Festival set to spice up winter

ABC News

time5 days ago

  • ABC News

Ola Adelaide! Spanish Film Festival set to spice up winter

The Spanish Film Festival, an annual celebration of film and culture from Spain and Latin America, is set to spice up Adelaide in June and July. An avid film-goer, ABC Adelaide's Deb Tribe will preview the highly anticipated Festival on SA Weekends this Saturday, giving listeners a chance to win tickets to screenings at Palace Cinemas. The fiesta features a curated selection of thirty films from Spain and Latin America and includes a strong line-up of comedy, drama, up and coming talent, plus cinematic favourites from the region. There's five double passes to give away, so listen to Deb this Saturday 7 June from 6am and wait for the cue to call. Tune your radio to 891AM, listen live online at or download the ABC listen app and take us with you, so you don't miss out.

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