My devil-obsessed dad ate my stepmother and robbed me of my identity - I'll never forget the way I found out about her murder

Daily Mail​

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A woman who's devil-obsessed dad ate her stepmother has opened up about the way she found out about her murder.
Tuesday's instalment of This Morning saw co-hosts Ben Shephard and Cat Deeley sit down with guest Jamie-Lee Arrow.
Jamie-Lee's dad, Isakin Drabbad, was convicted of killing and cannibalising his partner, Helle Christensen, back in 2011.
The mum-of-two appears on Discovery+'s documentary, Evil Livers Here: The Killer Speaks and has a conversation with her dad.
Cat revealed: 'This is the most difficult thing I have ever watched because of the cruelty that was involved from your father to you, during your childhood.'
Jamie-Lee reflected on her childhood and said: 'When I grew up I had my dad and my mum, at my dad's house it was like stepping into a horror movie.
Tuesday's instalment of This Morning saw co-hosts Ben Shephard and Cat Deeley (both pictured, left) sit down with guest Jamie-Lee Arrow
'My dad was very unpredictable, he could go from being the kindest, funniest most charming dad, to being this monster.'
Her father was fascinated with the devil and would expose Jamie-Lee to his twisted ideology.
She explained: 'He often spoke about the devil and demons. He always had these paintings all over the flat.
'He liked to draw the devil, really scary pictures. He wanted me to turn against God and worship the devil.'
Jamie-Lee's parents weren't together and she would split her time between them as a child.
'We'd lay in the bed in darkness and he'd ask me if I could see faces,' she said.
Jamie-Lee experienced bullying as a child and her dad gave her a 'voodoo doll to use on my bullies, that darkness was so normal to me, it was my everyday life,' she shared.
Her father introduced her to his new partner, Helle, who Jamie-Lee became fond of quite quickly.
'When they first met they were really nice to each other, I really liked her. I thought she was so beautiful... They met in a mental institute, so they both had their problems so that relationship turned really toxic, really quickly,' Jamie-Lee recalled.
Jamie-Lee's father murdered her stepmother. Her mother had to break the tragic news to her.
'When she sat me down, at first I didn't want to hear it,' she said.
Jamie-Lee recalled the moment when she was around nine-years-old when her mum told her that her stepmother was dead and how she responded, 'My first reaction was, 'was it dad?' She said yeah.'
'I read the world cannibal in the newspapers a few months after that, but I didn't know what cannibal meant,' she explained.
Jamie-Lee added: 'I didn't go to school, to shops, watch TV. She wanted to protect me.'
'When I saw it I froze, I didn't know what to do. I Googled the word, it still didn't make sense to me.'
Her mum urged to not try to find out anything else about the case and she didn't until Drabbad told her himself.
'When I went back to school all my friends acted differently towards me, everyone was asking about the murder and my dad, people were scared of me and my dad. It really felt like I had been robbed of my identity after the murder,' Jamie-Lee recalled.
During her teenage years, Jamie-Lee struggled with drug use and alcohol and became close to her dad.
'He knew that my mum didn't agree with my drug addiction,' Jamie said.
'My dad became the one I turned to because he was the only one that was accepting of my lifestyle and wasn't judging me and was treating me the same way.
'It was only natural for me to become closer to him.'
Drabbad was in a psychiatric ward and Jamie-Lee would visit him.
'I didn't see him for two years after the murder, but then I was tricked into seeing him again and when I first saw him he was so normal and didn't even mention the murder,' she recalled.
'When I started seeing him on my own he slowly brainwashing me into becoming like him. He made himself my entire universe.'
Eventually, their relationship broke down and four years later they reconnect to be interviewed for the documentary.
'It's hard, I will always love my dad, I don't love what he did but it's hard to sit there and watch someone so evil talking to me and try not to feel the love for them and try to remind myself this person is not good for me, I can't have him in my life,' Jamie-Lee opened up.
Jamie-Lee now has a son and daughter but admitted: 'As long as they're under my care I'll never introduce that darkness to him.'
She added: 'I believe it's pretty much impossible to stop loving your parents... but that doesn't mean he can be a part of my life... It's like I'm grieving an alive person.'
Jamie-Lee's father didn't respond to This Morning's request for comment.
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