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Metro
2 days ago
- Entertainment
- Metro
I won't sleep with anyone else until I figure out my sexuality
'Reading it made me realise that I'm a lesbian.' Those were the words that stopped me in my tracks in February. They were uttered during a video in which two women shared how they discovered an online document – titled 'Am I a lesbian?' and written by Tumblr user Angeli Luz in 2018 – which helped them unlock their sexual orientation. Being that I'd always felt confused over which label fit me best, the clip instantly made me feral with curiosity and I knew I had to read Luz's words immediately. In the document, Luz suggests the reader asks themselves questions like whether they 'can be truthfully happy with a man', if they can 'have healthy fulfilling relationships with men', and whether they 'actually wanna [sic] be with them'. She lists a series of situations that lesbians who have not accepted their sexuality might find themselves in, too. For example, 'I like the idea of being with a man, but any time a man makes a move on me, I get incredibly uncomfortable', and '[I only develop] attraction to a guy after a female friend expresses attraction to him.' As I ploughed through its paragraphs, mentally responded to the questions and digested all the information within it, I hoped a clear answer would present itself. However, by 4am, I was still as confused as ever. That's when, despite my sleep-deprived state, I came up with an idea… With thousands of members from all over the world, our vibrant LGBTQ+ WhatsApp channel is a hub for all the latest news and important issues that face the LGBTQ+ community. Simply click on this link, select 'Join Chat' and you're in! Don't forget to turn on notifications! I'd stay celibate until I figured out my true sexual identity. Questioning my sexual orientation isn't a new thing. As a child, I crushed on female characters – especially the girls from Totally Spies – and shared my first kisses with girls. And as a teen, I initially identified as bisexual for this reason. At school I fell hard for a girl, but due to the intense and unforgiving bullying that stemmed from our outing, I ended the relationship before it could flourish and instead stuck to dating men as it felt 'safer'. By my early 20s, I decided that pansexual probably fit better as, over the years, all types of people had entranced me – women, men, and non-binary folks of all shapes and sizes. It certainly seemed I was attracted to people rather than gender. And yet, all my 'serious' relationships have been with men. Why? The simplest answer is fear. Even with laws to protect us, society is often still so brutal to LGBTQ+ people, and I don't think I ever shed the fear born from being bullied at school. In fact, it was because of my most recent break-up that my questioning reignited. Despite our amazing friendship, I had grown increasingly detached, both emotionally and physically. In the days following the break-up, I had already started wondering if I had always been gay, but was too afraid to date women, or if these doubts were just my regret from the relationship overwhelming me. Then, a week after the split, I discovered that document. In it, I discovered the term compulsory heterosexuality, which suggests that heterosexuality is a social construct that deliberately marginalises women's queer identities by perpetuating homophobia. Essentially, society forces heterosexuality upon us as an expectation of normalcy. And for me, that certainly seemed to fit. Despite finding women attractive, I'd dated men because it felt safer. In fact, while reading through the document, I repeatedly found myself asking: 'Am I even attracted to men or have I been conditioned to think I am?' I'm still not sure of the answer, but at least I know that compulsory heterosexuality has dictated some of my sexual and romantic choices. If nothing else, this discovery made me resolute in my determination to uncover who I truly am instead of allowing society's expectations to guide me. But I knew I didn't want to use anyone's heart or body as an experiment to do so. Charging straight into dating women felt unwise when so much of my romantic history was marred by rashness and confusion. Sex and a desire to be loved have too often dictated my life's direction, many times into the arms of an abusive or manipulative man. Of course, not all my experiences with men have been bad or regretful, but I wanted time to decide if I was interested in having any more. However, it also wouldn't be fair to myself to muddy the water further with other sexual conquests. So, despite my own fondness for the act, celibacy seemed the best way to balance my romantic life, explore my sexuality, and the LGBTQ+ community that comes with it. No dating, no sex. Just a year of reflection and self-exploration of my queer identity. It may seem a dramatic choice, but I'm six months in already and I feel incredible. I've immersed myself into the LGBTQ+ community, going to events I once avoided because I didn't feel 'gay enough' and have met so many wonderful people in our vibrant community as a result. This time on my own has also forced me to acknowledge how many of my romantic and sexual entanglements were me trying to fix something or to be socially accepted. More Trending I also don't miss sex at all. I actually feel more connected to my body than ever as I've focused on understanding how my body wants to feel pleasure rather than performing for the male gaze. It has been liberating, to say the least. At the halfway point, my brain and body do feel like they're screaming, 'you're a lesbian!' – mostly because I haven't fantasised about men once and largely only feel romantic and sexual interest toward women – but I'm still giving myself more time. Maybe a desire to date again will take over in a few months, or I might decide that I feel secure enough in my sexual orientation and do away with my celibacy. But for now, I'm committed to giving myself 12 months free of sex, dating and all the complications that come with that. Do you have a story you'd like to share? Get in touch by emailing Share your views in the comments below. View More » MORE: Two people stabbed and one shot during World Pride parade MORE: 'I'm the first trans man on a UK gay dating show – I feel validated' MORE: My relationship was on the line – until I got a driver's licence
West Australian
6 days ago
- General
- West Australian
Luz Maria Barrera Agaton: Police probe foul play in drowning of bodybuilder beauty queen in Mexico
Foul play is being investigated in the drowning of a bodybuilder beauty queen while on holiday. Luz Maria Barrera Agaton had been talking with family and friends at a hotel pool in Mexico when most of them went to bed just after midnight on Sunday. Luz was eventually left alone in the pool at the Coco Resort & Villas Hotel in Motul, near Cancun. When she did not make it back to her room, family and friends went searching — finding her lifeless body at the bottom of the pool. Police are now investigating possible links to the 36-year-old's death and a threatening banners hung outside the gym she owned and ran in Merida just two weeks earlier. Luz destroyed the signs. In 2017, while dating ex-state prosecutor Chiri Roberto, she and her partner were threatened by thugs. And in 2023, her gym was the scene of a tragic death when a barbell fell on top of a young man, allegedly because of a trainer's carelessness. Luz, who was the vice president of the Yucatecan Association of Bodybuilding and Fitness, was crowned fitness champion at the 2017 Mister Mexico bodybuilding contest. She also won the female bikini category at the Mr Olympia Amateur competition in Spain. Yucatecan president Evangelina Cim Mezquita paid tribute to Luz in a Facebook post. 'Sometimes it's impossible to understand why certain things happen,' she said. 'We will miss you. Your boundless joy, your simple manner. 'May God comfort your entire family.'
Perth Now
6 days ago
- General
- Perth Now
Cops probe foul play in shock drowning of beauty queen
Foul play is being investigated in the drowning of a bodybuilder beauty queen while on holiday. Luz Maria Barrera Agaton had been talking with family and friends at a hotel pool in Mexico when most of them went to bed just after midnight on Sunday. Luz was eventually left alone in the pool at the Coco Resort & Villas Hotel in Motul, near Cancun. When she did not make it back to her room, family and friends went searching — finding her lifeless body at the bottom of the pool. Police are now investigating possible links to the 36-year-old's death and a threatening banners hung outside the gym she owned and ran in Merida just two weeks earlier. Luz destroyed the signs. In 2017, while dating ex-state prosecutor Chiri Roberto, she and her partner were threatened by thugs. Luz Maria Barrera Agaton was a successful bodybuilder. Credit: Supplied And in 2023, her gym was the scene of a tragic death when a barbell fell on top of a young man, allegedly because of a trainer's carelessness. Luz, who was the vice president of the Yucatecan Association of Bodybuilding and Fitness, was crowned fitness champion at the 2017 Mister Mexico bodybuilding contest. She also won the female bikini category at the Mr Olympia Amateur competition in Spain. Yucatecan president Evangelina Cim Mezquita paid tribute to Luz in a Facebook post. 'Sometimes it's impossible to understand why certain things happen,' she said. 'We will miss you. Your boundless joy, your simple manner. 'May God comfort your entire family.'
Scottish Sun
7 days ago
- General
- Scottish Sun
Bodybuilding beauty queen, 36, found dead in hotel swimming pool while on holiday with family as cops launch probe
It comes after a suspicious threat was made at her gym just weeks before TRAGIC END Bodybuilding beauty queen, 36, found dead in hotel swimming pool while on holiday with family as cops launch probe Click to share on X/Twitter (Opens in new window) Click to share on Facebook (Opens in new window) A GLAMOROUS bodybuilder has been found dead in a swimming pool while on holiday, sparking a police probe. Luz María Barrera Agatón died in the early hours of Sunday morning while holidaying with her family, before loved ones found her tragic corpse. Sign up for Scottish Sun newsletter Sign up 3 A bodybuilding beauty queen has been found dead in a hotel pool Credit: Jam Press 3 Luz María Barrera Agatón died in the early hours of Sunday morning Credit: Jam Press 3 Police have not ruled out foul play Credit: Jam Press Police have not ruled out foul play during their investigation. The beauty influencer was staying at the Coco Resort & Villas Hotel with family and friends in Motul, west of Cancun, Mexico. She had been chatting with them around the cenote-style pool before they made their way to bed at around midnight. Luz was left alone before she was later seen floating lifeless in the hotel pool. The tragic athlete was retrieved from the water and emergency services were called immediately, according to NeedToKnow. Paramedics rushed to the scene but could do nothing to save the young woman's life. The area was then cordoned off by authorities as officials from the Attorney General's Office arrived to conduct a preliminary investigation. According to local reports, the bodybuilder had actually received threatening banners which were hung outside her gym in Merida. These appeared just two weeks before her death. Luz removed the signs herself and destroyed them - but never informed police of the suspicious ordeal. Missing TikToker Hannah Moody, 31, posted tragic final video before she vanished as her body is found two weeks later Similarly, in 2017, thugs threatened her and her then-partner Chiri Roberto, a former state prosecutor. In a seemingly unrelated accident in 2023, her gym was the scene of a tragic death when a barbell fell on top of a young man, allegedly due to a trainer's carelessness. But cops are now probing whether any of these deaths could be related to the passing of Luz on Sunday. The bombshell bodybuilder was the vice president of the Yucatecan Association of Bodybuilding and Fitness (AFFEY). She owned her own gym in Merida and sponsored a Bodybuilding Tournament in Motul. And she was crowned Fitness Champion at the 2017 Mister Mexico bodybuilding contest. On top of those achievements, she also won the female bikini category at the Mr Olympia Amateur competition held in Spain, and was crowned queen of the Motul Carnival in 2024. AFFEY president Evangelina Cimé Mézquita mourned the decorated athlete and model on Facebook. She said: 'Sometimes it's impossible to understand why certain things happen. 'We will miss you. Your boundless joy, your simple manner. 'May God comfort your entire family.'
The Irish Sun
7 days ago
- General
- The Irish Sun
Bodybuilding beauty queen, 36, found dead in hotel swimming pool while on holiday with family as cops launch probe
A GLAMOROUS bodybuilder has been found dead in a swimming pool while on holiday, sparking a police probe. Luz María Barrera Agatón died in the early hours of Sunday morning while holidaying with her family, before loved ones found her tragic corpse. Advertisement 3 A bodybuilding beauty queen has been found dead in a hotel pool Credit: Jam Press 3 Luz María Barrera Agatón died in the early hours of Sunday morning Credit: Jam Press 3 Police have not ruled out foul play Credit: Jam Press Police have not ruled out The beauty influencer was staying at the Coco Resort & Villas Hotel with family and friends in Motul, west of Cancun, Mexico. She had been chatting with them around the cenote-style pool before they made their way to bed at around midnight. Luz was left alone before she was later seen Advertisement The Paramedics rushed to the scene but could do nothing to save the young woman's life. The area was then cordoned off by authorities as officials from the Attorney General's Office arrived to conduct a preliminary investigation. According to local reports, the Advertisement Most read in The US Sun Exclusive These appeared just two weeks before her death. Luz removed the signs herself and destroyed them - but never informed police of the suspicious ordeal. Missing TikToker Hannah Moody, 31, posted tragic final video before she vanished as her body is found two weeks later Similarly, in 2017, thugs threatened her and her then-partner Chiri Roberto, a former state prosecutor. In a seemingly unrelated accident in 2023, her gym was the scene of a tragic death when a barbell fell on top of a young man, allegedly due to a trainer's carelessness. Advertisement But cops are now probing whether any of these deaths could be related to the passing of Luz on Sunday. The She owned her own gym in Merida and sponsored a Bodybuilding Tournament in Motul. And she was crowned Fitness Champion at the 2017 Mister Mexico bodybuilding contest. Advertisement On top of those achievements, she also won the female bikini category at the Mr Olympia Amateur competition held in Spain, and was crowned queen of the Motul Carnival in 2024. AFFEY president Evangelina Cimé Mézquita mourned the decorated athlete and model on Facebook. She said: 'Sometimes it's impossible to understand why certain things happen. Read more on the Irish Sun 'We will miss you. Your boundless joy, your simple manner. Advertisement 'May God comfort your entire family.'
