01-06-2025
The Punisher's self-help book on male impotence and 'Freak Offs' with Cassie Ventura tops the charts following his Diddy testimony
One of the exotic dancers - known also as The Punisher, who took part in the horrific 'freak offs' with Diddy and his ex-girlfriend Cassie Ventura - has published a best-selling book about his inability to function properly in the bedroom.
In Search of Freezer Meat, written by Sharay Hayes, explores the topic of erectile dysfunction and has soared to number one in Amazon's 'Male Impotence' category -thanks in part to his recent courtroom testimony at Diddy's trial and repeated references to the infamous 'Freak Off' sessions in the book.
The book, which includes a six-page description of his sordid encounters with the hip-hop mogul and Ventura, has beat out other more established titles in the genre including one from the Mayo Clinic.
And it has won a slew of five-star reviews, with readers calling it 'hilarious but real' and 'brutally honest'.
Speaking to Hayes confirmed his book had been selling more copies since his testimony in the trial, which is taking place in New York.
'The nook is about men struggling and developing erectile dysfunction, but not physically – mentally.'
'The whole premise of my book is using real-life funny stories to kind of make light of the struggles men go through. So that's how it tied in with the story being there [with Cassie and Diddy].
'I told the details somewhat accurately, but I didn't say names. I called them a married couple, but I didn't say baby oil, not knowing it will be all over the news, and a common thing associated with them.'
Former exotic dancer Sharay Hayes has a best-selling book on Amazon about erectile dysfunction - partially due to his recent testimony at the Diddy trial and his six-page reference to the 'Freak Offs' he participated in alongside the rap mogul and Cassie Ventura
In his testimony, Hayes said he had met with Diddy and Ventura around 12 times for the sessions and that his book uses 'real life funny stories to kind of make light of the struggle's men go through'
The sales of his book, In Search of Freezer Meat, have skyrocketed since his testimony. He told that he wasn't looking for free publicity but didn't mind the spike
When asked about his Amazon sales spiking, Hayes explained he wasn't 'looking for free publicity', but was obliged to accept the spike in sales that's come with the trial's high-profile nature.
Hayes expanded: 'It's a Catch-22 because it is a serious topic. It's something men are going through and are going to go through. So, I was really trying to create a self-help platform.
'But I think the association with the trial kind of discredits it in a way. So, it's an uphill swim because now it's not about the message. It's just this book from the trial. So, I got to really see how it pans out in the long term.'
Sean 'Diddy' Combs, 55, has denied all allegations of sex trafficking, racketeering and other charges he stands on trial for.
In his testimony on May 20, Hayes, 51, described how he was paid around $2,000 to take part in a dozen 'Freak Offs' from 2012 onwards.
He described how during the first one, he poured baby oil all over himself and Ventura during what he called a 'sexy scene' at the Trump International Hotel in New York.
'A few minutes (later) I could see her husband enter the room. The man was nude, but I could not see his face, there was a veil, and I could see he had a bottle of Astroglide,' the former exotic dancer testified.
Diddy watched the whole time, pleasured himself and directed Hayes and Ventura to have sex in different positions while wearing a veil to disguise his identity - eventually switching to a baseball camp when Diddy became more comfortable in his presence.
In his testimony, the exotic dancer turned best-selling author said he was required to wear a veil and have sex with Ventura while Diddy watched. When the rapper became more comfortable, he upgraded to a baseball cap
The Trump International Hotel in New York where Hayes met with the former couple for his first 'Freak Off' session and poured baby oil all over himself and Ventura during what he called a 'sexy scene' inside the room
Hayes said his struggles with erectile dysfunction are what caused the sessions with Diddy and Ventura to end
Diddy in court on Wednesday as he faces life in prison if convicted of sex trafficking, racketeering and other charges
But in his testimony, Hayes described his inability to perform as the reason he stopped being hired for 'Freak Offs', which partially inspired his 180-page book on erectile dysfunction and exploring his 30-year-long career as an exotic dancer.
In the book, he goes into far more detail and writes how the problem and low sexual confidence is 'killing men quietly - and nobody's talking about it'.
The full title of his book is a mouthful: In Search of FREEZER MEAT: A Story of the Male Mental Health Crisis Caused by Erectile Dysfunction and the Only True Cure No One is Talking About...a Penis Implant'.
The blurb for the book says: 'Hayes, once a full-blown sex symbol, hit rock bottom when things stopped working. Pills didn't help. Advice didn't stick. So, he went deeper - looking not just for how to fix it, but why it was happening in the first place.
'What he discovered changed everything: the problem wasn't just physical - it was mental. And not just about sex, either. It was tied to his confidence, his income, his sense of self, even his worth as a man. Most guys never connect the dots.'
Readers appear to agree in the review section, with one reader, Leah Revi, commenting that the book was 'absolutely hilarious'.
In her five-star review, she wrote: 'The story feels incredibly real and relatable - especially when it comes to the ups and downs of our sex lives. Erectile dysfunction is a genuine part of the human experience, and the book handles it with humor and honesty.'
Another reader, Mike Cee, called the book 'raw, honest and unexpectedly hilarious'.
His book won a slew of five-star reviews, with one reader, Leah Revi, calling it 'hilarious but real' and 'brutally honest'
Another reviewer admired Hayes's exploration of the disorder and the pressures that come with performing sexually
The Punisher, Hayes's working name, gave it to his readers straight, with one comment stating 'he basically duct-tapes you to a chair'
Matt Bilinsky said he liked how Hayes 'doesn't sugarcoat anything'.
He wrote: 'He basically duct-tapes you to a chair and says: 'Hey bro, let's talk about why your d**** been on vacation since 2020.'
Among the books Hayes is currently outselling on Amazon's 'male impotence' category is Mayo Clinic on Prostate Health by Dr. Derek J. Lomas.
Hayes expressed gratitude for the positive impact his book is having, telling 'I'm getting direct messages from men who saw the trial and then read the book, saying, "This really helped me. Thank you for writing it. Thank you for sharing your story."'
He added: 'I'm receiving encouraging feedback. But whether it all turns out positively for me in the long run remains to be seen.'
Hayes's book is outperforming several titles on Kegel exercises - commonly recommended for strengthening the prostate - and another Mayo Clinic release: Coping with Erectile Dysfunction: How to Regain Confidence and Enjoy Great Sex by Dr. Barry McCarthy and Professor Michael Metz.
Other books in Amazon's top 10 for male impotence also focus on pelvic floor exercises and prostate health.
