Death most beautiful: CA buys helium for Rs 3,500, dies by suicide at Delhi Airbnb

India Today

30-07-2025

A 25-year-old man working at a company in Gurugram died by suicide in an Airbnb flat in the Delhi area after inhaling helium gas, police said. The man, identified as Dheeraj Kansal, had booked the flat for eight days, from July 20 to 28, and sourced the helium for Rs 3,500 from a supplier in Ghaziabad after searching on IndiaMART.Before taking the step, Kansal posted a long emotional note on Facebook, in which he wrote: "Death is the most beautiful part of life for me. Please do not be sad about my death. Suicide is not wrong because I have no responsibilities on me."advertisementHe made it clear that "no one should be blamed" for his decision, adding, "This was my choice alone. Every single person who I met in my life was really kind to me. So I request the police and government to please don't disturb anyone because of this."
In his post, Kansal said he had no regrets, stating, "It's my choice, my life, and my rules." He described his existence as "a lie" and said he did not want to be born on this earth again. He also expressed deep self-hatred, saying he hated himself and calling himself "a loser".
A native of Haryana's Karnal who grew up in Delhi, Kansal wrote that he had worked on himself but achieved nothing in the end. He said that several people had tried to help him over the years, but he was "stupid," "idiot," and "dumb" for not being able to change.He said he struggled immensely after the death of his grandmother (dadi), which left him unable to even step outside his home. "I should have done this years ago," he wrote.He asked everyone not to feel sad about his death, saying he had no major responsibilities and was not too emotionally attached to anyone.In case his Facebook post was taken down, he mentioned that he had also written everything on a physical note. Once again, he urged the police and the government not to bother or disturb anyone because of his death.Kansal's note revealed a deeply disturbed state of mind. "I want to thank all of you. I am not going to say any names because I don't want any of you to get in trouble," he said. He also expressed a final wish for his money to be donated to an orphanage or an old age home, and that his organs be donated.advertisementOver a month before his death, on June 1, Kansal had shared a cryptic poem on his Facebook page. The piece, titled The Dust Remembers the Shape, explored themes of existence, emotional detachment, and the search for peace.- Ends