‘My heart is the best thing about me' – BBC star shares daughter's heartbreaking video before her murder by evil ex
Speaking publicly for the first time since his wife and two daughters were murdered, John broke down in tears as he recalled a TikTok video about love that Louise, 25, had reposted before her death.
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John choked up as he reflected on the video Louise shared after the split, which said how her heart was "the best part about me".
In an emotional interview alongside surviving daughter Amy, the racing commentator told how proud he was of his daughter for loving as she did.
Her former partner Kyle Clifford was handed a whole-life sentence for murdering Louise, her sister Hannah, 28, and her mum Carol, 61, on July 9 last year.
Louise had broken up with Clifford 13 days before, telling friends he had a nasty temper.
Pausing to gather himself during the BBC interview, he explained that he was so proud of his girls for leaving behind a "legacy of love".
Reading out the message in the TikTok video, he said: "My heart is the best part about me and who I am as a person.
"I will never be embarrassed for loving someone with everything in me.
"Because that's how I would want someone to love me.
"Yes, it didn't work out, but I don't regret loving him or how hard I loved.
"I'm proud of myself for realising that love is always worth giving, even when it may not be received."
John added: "They weren't Louise's words but they could well have been.
"As you can tell from my reaction now, I'm so proud of them for living like that and loving like that."
John went on to say that he did not want his loved ones to be defined by their deaths.
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He told how he is still "very close" to his loved ones and speaks to his girls and wife as soon as he wakes up everyday, almost a year on since their deaths.
Speaking to Victoria Derbyshire, he said: "From the moment I wake up, I say good morning to each of them.
"Sometimes I say out loud to Hannah and Louise, 'sorry I can't be with you, I'm with your mum at the moment'.
"As I close my eyes at night, I chat to them as well.
"They're very close to me all the time."
Carol, Louise, and Hannah were found dead at the family home in Bushey, Hertfordshire, in July last year.
Following the deaths, John said the devastation he and his surviving daughter Amy feel "cannot be put into words".
But the brave racing commentator returned to work just 60 days after the horrific deaths of his family.
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Footage released by cops shows Clifford breaking down during a police interview as he is asked about a note he wrote to his family.
He said he did not 'want to live my life without her' after Louise broke up with him two weeks before the attack.
A harrowing trial was told the monster hatched the "carefully planned and executed" plot to attack Louise and her family after she broke up with him.
Chilling CCTV showed how he began gathering items to use in the attack around two weeks before the horror.
On the day of the murders, evil Clifford tricked his way inside after claiming to Carol that wanted to give Louise her belongings back following their break up.
He "brutally attacked" Carol five times with a knife, covering up her body before murdering Louise and Hannah with a crossbow.
When police arrived, they discovered Hannah collapsed in the doorway and Louise bound in the snug next to her mum's body.
Clifford meanwhile fled to a cemetery in Enfield, North London, close to his home - sparking a manhunt.
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