Lena Dunham admits she 'doesn't trust herself' in her marriage to Luis Felber in candid essay about her 'last affair'

Daily Mail​

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Lena Dunham has admitted she 'doesn't trust herself' in her marriage as she reflected on her tumultuous dating history.
The Girls star, 39, wed musician Luis Felber in 2021 and wrote an essay for Vogue ahead of the release of her semi-autobiographical Netflix series Too Much.
She mused: 'You really never know when you're having your last affair.
'Some of us hope that every frog we kiss is our happy ending, while others stand hand in hand with their soulmate, still terrified of the vista narrowing, the buffet running out, closing time.
'Even now, I can't be sure. It's not that I don't trust my husband or our life – I do, very much. It's that at some point along the way, wrecking myself again and again on the rocky shores of male attention, I stopped trusting myself.'
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Lena went on to detail her 'boy crazy' past as she reflected on her two-week relationship with a man called Craig, whom she developed strong feelings for, that were not reciprocated.
Their relationship fizzled out when Lena moved to London for work and it was then that she met Luis, 38, in January 2021 on a blind date after being set up by friends.
Less than a year later, they had tied the knot in September 2021.
Lena previously dated musician Jack Antonoff. They were together for five years from 2012 to 2017 before their split, which was described as 'amicable.'
Lena had spoken about her heartbreak in an essay for Vogue in May 2018: 'We sat in our shared kitchen of nearly four years and quietly faced each other, acknowledging what nobody wanted to say,' she began.
'That obsessive connection had turned to blind devotion, and the blinders were coming off to reveal that we had evolved separately (the least shocking reason of all and perhaps the most common),' a second excerpt read.
Following her split from boyfriend Jack, Lena revealed she was briefly engaged to an unnamed man, after he 'proposed with the lace of a Timbaland boot while they were snowed in at her parents' apartment.'
Lena's new 10-part rom-com, Too Much, follows a New Yorker (Megan Stalter) who heads to London in the wake of a breakup - much like she did herself - and is co-produced by Luis.
She previously explained why she cast Stalter instead of herself in her semi-autobiographical series.
'I was not willing to have another experience like what I'd experienced around [my HBO series Girls] at this point in my life,' the producer-star explained to the New Yorker.
'Physically, I was just not up for having my body dissected again. It was a hard choice, not to cast Meg — because I knew I wanted Meg — but to admit that to myself.
'I used to think that winning meant you just keep doing it and you don't care what anybody thinks. I forgot that winning is actually just protecting yourself and doing what you need to do to keep making work.'
Lena continued: 'I remember looking at Meg and being, like, "You are my muse. You inspire me every single day to go home and tap out pages upon pages." I definitely don't want to be my own muse.'
She gushed over how 'inspiring and unbelievably talented' the Hacks star is as her thinly veiled character Jessica, who falls in love with a British musician called Felix (Will Sharpe) after moving from New York to North London.
Too Much will be released on Netflix on July 10.