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Yahoo
23-05-2025
- Entertainment
- Yahoo
Where to Watch ‘Pee-wee as Himself'
Director Matt Wolf spent two years interviewing Paul Reubens for his new HBO documentary 'Pee-Wee as Himself,' not realizing that the actor was dying of cancer. As he told TheWrap at Sundance earlier this year, 'I did have the sense that Paul was motivated to tell his story in a way he hadn't been before, that it was going to be challenging for him, but that he threw himself into that process and was fully committed to being himself on camera in a way that was totally uncomfortable and something he had never done.' 'The idea that these would be the last words that he would share publicly with the world was completely off my radar,' he continued. Here's how to watch the two-part documentary about the Pee-wee Herman star. It premieres Friday, May 23, at 8:00 pm ET/PT on HBO and Max. 'Pee-wee as Himself' is a two-part documentary. Both episodes premiere on May 23. Part One, which follows Reubens from his childhood through the creation of Pee-wee and his breakout with the 1985 film 'Pee-wee's Big Adventure,' premieres Friday, May 23, at 8:00-9:40 p.m. ET/PT. Part Two follows immediately, debuting at 9:40 p.m. ET/PT. It covers casting, production design and the creative process behind his Emmy-winning series 'Pee-wee's Playhouse,' which ran from 1986 to 1990 on CBS. It also features the actor's final interview before his death in July of 2023. The documentary is about the late Paul Reubens and his alter-ego persona, Pee-wee Herman. The film features interviews with filmmakers Tim Burton and Judd Apatow, actors Natasha Lyonne, S. Epatha Merkerson, Laurence Fishburne, Debi Mazar, David Arquette, Laraine Newman and Cassandra Peterson, artists Gary Panter and Wayne White and Reubens' sister Abby Rubenfeld. The post Where to Watch 'Pee-wee as Himself' appeared first on TheWrap.
Boston Globe
23-05-2025
- Entertainment
- Boston Globe
‘Pee-wee as Himself' is a bittersweet look at the price of fame
Former Groundlings Laraine Newman (of 'Saturday Night Live' fame) and Cassandra Peterson (a.k.a. 'Elvira, Mistress of the Dark') appear as talking heads here. The late Phil Hartman, alum of both 'SNL' and The Groundlings, is seen in archival clips. Hartman, along with Reubens and Michael Varhol, wrote the 1985 box office hit, 'Pee-wee's Big Adventure,' the movie that put both Pee-wee and its novice director, Tim Burton, on the map. Additionally, Laurence Fishburne and S. Epatha Merkerson appear to remind us they were on ' A frame of Tim Burton and Paul Reubens as Pee-wee Herman while filming 'Pee-wee's Big Adventure" at the Alamo in the documentary "Pee-wee as Himself." Warner Bros. With documentaries like this one, I've often wondered how much control, if any, was ceded by the filmmakers in exchange for access. Especially when the subject is credited as an executive producer, as the late Reubens is here. Wolf pulls back the curtain by providing clips of Reubens talking about how upset he is at not being in control of the footage. There's even a scene at the beginning of the second episode where Reubens FaceTimes Wolf to ask if he can submit questions for the other interviewees. Advertisement 'You know the answer to that question is no,' says a stunned Wolf after a brief pause. We're privy to Wolf's relieved response when Reubens reveals that he's pranking him. 'Do you trust me?' Wolf is heard asking at another point. Reubens responds that he never will, though he admits there might be a little bit of trust between them. It's occasionally hard to ascertain how serious Reubens is in his responses; even without his trademark makeup, the familiar, mischievous Pee-wee smirk appears in those moments. Actor Paul Reubens transforms himself in the mirror into his character Pee-wee Herman in May 1980 in Los Angeles. MichaelThe title 'Pee-wee as Himself' is an intriguing summation of the documentary. Reubens, The title is also bittersweet. As the first, and more interesting, episode reveals, Paul Reubens was always himself until he tasted enormous success. Those of us old enough to have seen 'Pee-wee's Big Adventure' in theaters, or watched the five seasons of the CBS hit 'Pee-wee's Playhouse,' remember the darker elements that populate the second episode. Advertisement But despite watching ' 'I was as out as you can be,' he tells us, 'and then I went back in the closet. Because I could pass.' Being identified as gay was always potentially career-ending, which is why so many Hollywood stars, like Rock Hudson and Tab Hunter, stayed closeted at the height of their fame. Reubens's situation is the opposite, and much of 'Pee-wee as Himself' implicitly deals with the psychological repercussions of going into the closet after tasting the freedom of avoiding it for so long. A frame of Pee-wee Herman's playhouse in the documentary "Pee-Wee as Himself." Warner Bros. Still, there was plenty of gay subtext on 'Pee-wee's Playhouse' (and some of the clips here highlight how sneaky the show could be). But not enough to negate plausible deniability. And when folks expressed concern about the believability of Pee-wee's relationship with his girlfriend in 'Pee-wee's Big Adventure,' Reubens counter-attacked by staging that ridiculously long kiss between him and Valeria Golino in the box office flop, 'Big-Top Pee-wee.' In a way, the success of Pee-wee Herman was a reward for Reubens hiding his true self. I found this idea to be so profoundly sad that the overall documentary left me somewhat depressed. I can imagine how painful it would be if I had to go back into the closet, so my reaction is strictly personal. Advertisement The saddest part of 'Pee-wee as Himself' is that Reubens's death from the cancer he privately battled for six years prohibited him from appearing on camera to speak about his most devastating scandal. Not the 1991 Overall, 'Pee-wee as Himself' is a worthwhile documentary for fans of Pee-wee Herman and for folks who want to know more. But even at its most entertaining, it can be an emotionally difficult viewing experience. PEE-WEE AS HIMSELF Starring: Paul Reubens On: HBO Odie Henderson is the Boston Globe's film critic.
Time Magazine
23-05-2025
- Entertainment
- Time Magazine
How the Director of Pee-wee as Himself Convinced Paul Reubens to Finally Open Up
On July 31, 2023, Matt Wolf received news that no documentarian wants to hear: The subject of his uncompleted film was dead. This was no mere talking head. It was a man who left an indelible mark on pop culture, whose manic persona, gray suit, and bowtie helped define the 1980s. On a personal note, says Wolf, it was someone who 'changed who I was through his art.' The subject was Paul Reubens, the actor best known as Pee-wee Herman, who had been diagnosed with cancer six years prior. 'Paul was very preoccupied with the film being finished before he died,' says Wolf, whose two-part HBO documentary, Pee-wee as Himself, debuted at Sundance to rapturous praise and premieres on May 23 on HBO and Max. Though Reubens never said his death was imminent, or even told Wolfe of his cancer diagnosis, his legacy was clearly on his mind. 'Every day I woke up saying, 'You must rise to the occasion. Do not drop the ball,'' says Wolf, whose previous documentary subjects include the musician Arthur Russell and the Biosphere 2. Reubens was, according to Wolf, intense, complex, and 'the funniest and one of the smartest people I've ever met.' He was also a 'resistant subject.' That resistance plays out onscreen and distinguishes Pee-wee as Himself from other celebrity bio-docs. This one tells, but it also shows. The telling comes via recollections from Wolf's talking heads—drawn from 40 hours of interviews with Reubens, plus friends, family, and colleagues—as well as Reubens' career archive, including 1,000 hours of video footage and tens of thousands of images. These take us from Reubens' early life as a precociously creative child growing up not far from the Ringling Bros. Circus headquarters in Florida, through his work in the improv group the Groundlings, to his career successes: creating and starring in the hit 1985 film Pee-wee's Big Adventure and practically rewriting the book on children's programming during the five-season run of his Saturday morning CBS show Pee-wee's Playhouse. Where the doc shows rather than simply tells, however, comes when Reubens breaks the fourth wall about the process of making it, including wanting to be more hands-on with the production and his suspicious regard of Wolf. The tension is palpable. At one point, Reubens tells Wolf that he made 'one documentary that I liked out of, what—six?' 'There were times I was angry at Paul,' recalls Wolf. 'I accepted this was great material for the film, and he knew it.' Reubens, who admired people 'living conceptually' during his college days at California Institute of the Arts, had devised Pee-wee as a character meant to exist in the real world as well as showbiz. He was often billed as Pee-wee Herman during interviews and in movies, rarely letting his real self show in service of his full-time performance art piece. For Wolf, the trick was to pull back the curtain on the performance to reveal the man himself. Reubens was Wolf's 'dream subject.' They connected in 2020, during the height of pandemic lockdown, after Wolf caught wind that Reubens was interested in making a film about his life. So began a series of FaceTime and Zoom interactions that would number in the hundreds of hours. 'With Paul, there was no 15-minute conversation,' Wolf says. Reubens, unsure whether Wolf was the right guy for the job, proceeded begrudgingly. And then one day, the resistance just abated. 'He said, 'I'm in. Sometimes you gotta take a leap of faith,'' remembers Wolf. Though the line between director and subject was fixed, Wolf nonetheless considered Reubens a collaborator. But the question of just how much Reubens was to contribute added to the strain. Before Wolf had completed his interviews, Reubens went incommunicado. 'We were at an impasse as to what post-production would look like, and I was holding my ground that I would be doing that independently, and that he would have opportunities to see the cut,' says Wolf. 'And that didn't feel like enough to him.' 'Paul was very particular,' says Cassandra Peterson (better known as Elvira), who befriended Reubens in the 1970s when both were in the Groundlings and who appears in the doc. 'He wanted to control things, and have things exactly the way he wanted, to a really extreme degree. So I kind of felt sorry for the filmmakers. I knew it would be a tough road.' Peterson recalled falling out with Reubens due to a work issue that she did not specify. It happened not long after the 1986 debut of Pee-wee's Playhouse and lasted for years until they found themselves reunited while presenting an award together. 'It was great to be friends with Paul,' she says. 'He was funny, brilliant and a fantastic friend, but I really had to separate the work from the friendship.' She expressed great admiration for her friend's creativity. 'One of Paul's strong points was remembering how he was and what happened to him as a child,' says Peterson. 'He kept ahold of that childhood thing that everybody wishes they could hold on to. The freedom and creativity that you had when you were a child, Paul never let that go.' Wolf was initially reluctant to include his own presence in the movie, but he and Reubens decided together to explore their dynamic on-screen. Control was a frequent topic behind the scenes and in front of the camera, where Reubens openly pondered if he should be the one making the film. Wolf attempted to shoot candid footage of Reubens to augment the talking-head material, but it didn't work. 'If anything that wasn't planned happened, he would be unhappy,' Wolf recalls. As to Reubens' need for control, Wolf has some theories. 'Many exceptional artists are incredibly controlling,' Wolf says. But also: 'He was controlling because he lost control of his personal narrative in the media.' Wolf is referring to two arrests that resulted in career-upending scandals. The first occurred in 1991, when Reubens was picked up in an adult movie theater in Sarasota, Fla., and charged with indecent exposure. This resulted in the effective cancellation of Pee-wee's Playhouse; he pleaded no contest and maintained publicly that the allegations were false. The second happened in 2002, when Reubens was charged with possession of child pornography. He eventually took a lesser plea of obscenity, while maintaining that nothing in his archive of vintage gay erotica constituted child sex abuse material. The impasse between Wolf and Reubens occurred before Wolf got to ask about these arrests in detail. Those parts of the movie are largely told through the recollections of his friends and family. Wolf did capture Reubens discussing his sexuality, which Reubens had never done publicly. Though he had relationships with men, he was closeted for the sake of his career. In the film, Reubens seems at ease discussing his life as a gay man, but Wolf says the filming of that interview 'was not a chill, easy day.' Sexuality was both a point of connection and tension among director and star. Wolf, too, is gay, but came out at 14 and values his sexuality as a key feature of his identity, a position Reubens didn't share. When Wolf engaged Reubens about his sexuality, he noticed his subject was 'squirmy and procrastinating a lot' then spoke only in vague terms. Finally Reubens took Wolf aside and said, 'I don't know how to do this.' To that, Wolf had a simple directive: 'Just say, 'I'm gay.'' Once the cameras were back rolling, Wolf asked Reubens point blank, 'Are you gay?' Reubens joked and then 'snapped in,' discussing his sexuality freely. 'It was extraordinary, and I felt very proud of him,' Wolf says. In July 2023, Wolf and Reubens resumed communication and agreed to proceed with the shoot. But the interview they planned never came to pass—Reubens died at 70 just two weeks later. Peterson says she was aware of the cancer 'from day one'—Reubens had called her crying the day he received his diagnosis of lung cancer. But he fought it and seemed to recover completely only to find out that he had a brain tumor some time later. Treatment for that also seemed to go well. 'He never dwelled on it,' Peterson recalls. 'He never talked about it. He ate healthy. He really turned his life around.' But then maybe a month or two before his death, Reubens told her that he wasn't feeling well. 'He'd had a few episodes of feeling sick, and I was getting worried,' she says. As indicated in the documentary, Reubens left behind a partner when he died. Peterson could not recall how long they were together before Reubens' death, but she said that their bond was undeniable. 'It was the first time I heard Paul talk about somebody who he really, really liked,' she said. 'It was nice that Paul had somebody at the end, a very nice person who really cared about Paul. I was so happy to see that.' The day before he died, Reubens recorded a voice note in which he reflected on his 2002 arrest and sent it to his publicist, Kelly Bush Novak, who passed it on to Wolf. Toward the end of the film, a frail-voiced Reubens says, 'More than anything, the reason I wanted to make a documentary was to let people see who I really am and how painful and difficult it was to be labeled something that I wasn't. The moment I heard somebody label me as, I'm just going to say it, a pedophile, I knew it was going to change everything moving forward and backwards.' Reubens' death put Wolf in a shaky position. He pushed down feelings of grief in order to finish his film. The stakes couldn't have been higher. 'I've never felt so trusted to take on such a big thing,' Wolf says. Peterson loves the resulting film. 'I really felt like Matt got Paul. He had a handle on what he was doing,' she says. The documentary is an honest portrait of a creative technician, his drive, his process, and the way he negotiated life in the public eye. The film rather explicitly asks a question that has preoccupied the culture on conscious and subconscious levels in the age of social media and scorn for traditional media: Who gets to tell people's stories? It seems clear that, had Reubens been in creative control, we wouldn't have seen the glimpses of his humanity that, while not always flattering, make Pee-wee as Himself so riveting. And, while they might not have been what Reubens wanted, they are the product of the deep respect and admiration Wolf had for his subject. 'I was determined to make meaning out of this,' says Wolf. 'I said to Paul, 'I will do right by you.' I meant it.'
San Francisco Chronicle
22-05-2025
- Entertainment
- San Francisco Chronicle
Movie Review: 'Pee-wee as Himself' unmasks Paul Reubens
Some bio documentaries are carried mostly by the reflective, archival footage that send you back to the subject's heyday. But in Matt Wolf's 'Pee-wee as Himself' — as wonderful as much of the archival stuff is — nothing is more compelling than when Paul Reubens is simply himself. Before his death from cancer in 2023, Reubens sat for 40 hours of interviews with Wolf. His cooperation is clearly uncertain and sometimes strained in the film — he stopped participating for a year before talking about his infamous 2001 arrest — and his doubts on the project linger throughout. Reubens would rather be directing it, himself, he says more than once. The man many know as Pee-wee Herman is used to controlling his own image, and he has good reason for being skeptical of others doing so. But beyond that tension over authorship of his story, Reubens is also delightfully resistant to playing the part of documentary cliche. 'I was born in 1938 in a little house on the edge of the Mississippi River,' he begins. 'My father worked on a steamboat.' Talking heads have gotten a bad rap in documentaries in recent years, but in 'Pee-wee as Himself,' nothing is more compelling than Paul Reubens simply sitting before the camera, looking back at us. Pee-wee may be iconic, but Paul Reubens is hysterical. And Wolf's film, with that winking title, makes for a revealing portrait of a performer who so often put persona in front of personhood. In that way, 'Pee-wee as Himself,' a two-part documentary premiering Friday on HBO and HBO Max, is moving as the posthumous unmasking of a man you can't help but wish we had known better. 'I wanted to jump into my TV and live in that world,' he says. Part of the delight of the first half of Wolf's film is watching the wide range of inspirations — the circus culture of Sarasota, Florida, where his family moved to; Andy Warhol; performance art — coalesce into a singular creation like Pee-wee. That name, he says, came from a tiny harmonica that said 'Pee-wee' on it, and a kid named Herman he knew growing up. 'It was a whole bunch of things that had never really connected connecting,' says Reubens. Wolf carefully traces the birth of Reubens' alter-ego through the Groundlings in Los Angeles, on stage at the Roxy and then out into the world, on 'The Gong Show,' on Letterman, in the 1985 Tim Burton-directed 'Pee-wee's Big Adventure' and, ultimately, on 'Pee-wee's Playhouse.' 'I felt in a way I was bringing the character out into the wild,' he recalls. 'I just stayed in character all day.' That came with obvious sacrifices, too. For the sake of his career, Reubens stayed closeted as a gay man. He grew intensely private and seldom appeared in public not in character. Reubens also jettisoned some of his close collaborators, like Phil Hartman, as his fame grew. There's tragedy, both self-inflicted and not, in Reubens' increasing isolation. When Reubens was arrested in 1991 and charged with indecent exposure, Reubens' carefully guarded persona came crashing down. The scandal was worse because people knew only Pee-wee and not Reubens. There was also injustice in the whole affair, particularly the 2002 arrest that followed on charges of child pornography that were later dropped. In both cases, homophobia played a role. When Reubens does get around to talking about it, he's most resistant to painting himself as a victim, or offering any, as he says, 'tears of a clown.' Wolf, the director of films like 'Recorder,' about Marion Stokes, who recorded television all day long for 30 years, and 'Spaceship Earth,' about the quirky 1991 Biosphere 2 experiment, is better known as a talented documentarian of visual archives than as an compelling interviewer of celebrities. 'Pee-wee as Himself' would have probably benefited from less one-sided interplay between subject and filmmaker. But Wolf's time was also limited with Reubens and just getting this much from him is clearly an accomplishment. Above all, Reubens says he's doing the film to clear a few things up. In the end, the full portrait of Reubens — including all his playful, self-deprecating charm in front of the camera — add up to a much-needed retort to some of the misunderstandings about Reubens. The day before he died, Reubens called Wolf to say one last thing: 'I wanted to let people know who I really was and see how painful it was to be labeled as something I wasn't.'
Los Angeles Times
22-05-2025
- Entertainment
- Los Angeles Times
Everyone knew Pee-wee Herman. But few knew the man behind the man-child
The first time we see Paul Reubens in the documentary 'Pee-wee as Himself,' he is not playing Pee-wee Herman, the antic man-child he portrayed in comedy routines, movies, a children's TV show and most of his public life. It's Reubens as we rarely saw him, out of character, having his hair and makeup fixed while he gently cracks jokes to the camera — claiming he was born in a house on the edge of the Mississippi River while his father worked on a steamboat. Then his mask slips just a bit further. We hear him jostling gently with the documentary's director, Matt Wolf, over the film which Reubens yearns to control, but which friends and colleagues have told him he can't properly oversee because he is its subject. 'You don't have perspective, really, on yourself,' Reubens says to Wolf. 'I will argue that — and you and I are going to be arguing that for a long, long time. Until this documentary is finished. You mark my words.' 'Pee-wee as Himself,' which HBO is showing in two parts on May 23 and will stream on Max, is Wolf's story of how Reubens channeled his passions for vintage toys, television, alternative art and comedy into the goofy, giggling Pee-wee Herman, who became a foundational figure of the 1980s pop-culture landscape and the focus of a 1991 media scandal. The documentary also supplies a vivid portrait of the real Reubens, who worked fastidiously to prevent audiences from seeing him as his authentic self. It explores his childhood, sexuality and uncompromising need to be in charge of any project involving him or his characters — right up to his death in 2023 at the age of 70, before the documentary was finished. What 'Pee-wee as Himself' ultimately reveals is a creator and performer so diligently compartmentalized that he could split himself in two, living widely disparate lives as the public, voluble Pee-wee Herman and the private, retreating Paul Reubens, and still have whole sides of himself that almost no one saw. 'We're all entitled to our inner lives,' Wolf said in an interview. 'Artists, particularly, are many different people inside. Paul was no exception, except the way he went about that was more extreme than perhaps you or I.' Wolf, whose previous nonfiction films include 'Wild Combination: A Portrait of Arthur Russell,' about the avant-garde musician, and 'Spaceship Earth,' about the artificial ecosystem Biosphere 2, is 43 years old. Though he considers himself a Pee-wee fan, he grew up with more attachment to a beloved talking Pee-wee Herman doll than to movies like 'Pee-wee's Big Adventure' or the Saturday morning show 'Pee-wee's Playhouse.' Over a long period of outreach and with help through mutual friends, Wolf got Reubens to begrudgingly agree to a series of interviews — but, the director said, 'with a lot of hesitation, and on the condition that we would have a 30-day trial period to see if we could work together.' Though Wolf gradually gained Reubens' trust, there was conflict as well — often around the subject's desire to take control of the film. As Wolf recounted, 'The first conversation, immediately, Paul said, 'I want to direct a documentary about myself, but everybody's telling me I can't. I don't understand why.' And I said, 'Well, I'm here to talk to you about me directing a documentary.'' (Wolf said they eventually agreed that Reubens would have 'meaningful consultation' on the film.) That compulsive need for authority is a quality that Reubens' friends and family members observed in him, going all the way back to his childhood. 'It was important to him that he control the narrative about him,' said Abby Rubenfeld, his sister. 'He knew what he wanted and he made it happen.' Growing up, Rubenfeld said that her brother was clearly poised to become an entertainer, whether he was putting on shows for the neighborhood on a basement stage their father built, or cajoling the family to travel from their home in upstate Oneonta, N.Y., to a taping of the 'Howdy Doody' show in Manhattan. 'He was so excited you would think he was the guest on Oprah,' Rubenfeld said. When Reubens joined the Groundlings comedy troupe in Los Angeles in the late 1970s, his colleagues there also noted his ambitions, even in a field where everyone was striving to stand out. 'His level of commitment was something I hadn't quite seen,' said Tracy Newman, a founding member of the Groundlings who worked with Reubens in this era. 'He was always thinking, looking for an opening, looking for his thing.' When Reubens first hit upon the childlike, toy-obsessed Pee-wee character at the Groundlings, Newman said, 'He knew he had something he could draw on so easily, because he was a 10-year-old boy at heart.' At the peak of Pee-wee's fame in the 1980s, Reubens was appearing publicly as his character and stopped granting interviews as himself, which seemed like the ideal way to safeguard his privacy and still enjoy the civilian pleasures of anonymity. 'Brad Pitt probably has to stay sequestered in a tower in a castle somewhere — it becomes no fun at all,' said Cassandra Peterson, the actor better known as the macabre movie hostess Elvira. 'I feel like I got to have a normal life, and Paul got to have a normal life too, and pick and choose when he wanted to be fawned over.' When they socialized together without their Pee-wee and Elvira costumes, Peterson said they were each like 'a drag queen who was out of drag.' But behind the scenes, Reubens was wrestling with his decision to hide his identity as a gay man after having been more openly out during his pre-fame years. Amid the scrutiny that came with his success, 'he thought he was in the closet,' said Rubenfeld, now a lawyer who focuses on LGBT rights. 'I think most people thought he was gay anyway, but he chose not to make that public. Nobody should have that kind of pain about who they are and have it affect them that much.' Even during the making of 'Pee-wee as Himself,' this proved difficult for Reubens to acknowledge. At one point, Wolf recalled, 'He came into my little room and was like, 'I don't know how to do this.' And I said, 'You just say, 'I'm gay.'' Once filmmaking resumed, Wolf recalled, 'I said, 'Paul, are you gay?' He made a bunch of jokes, and then he started to just speak from an authentic place.' The carefully constructed boundary between Paul Reubens and Pee-wee Herman was all but annihilated when Reubens was arrested for indecent exposure in 1991 at an adult movie theater in Sarasota, Fla., where his parents lived. At the time, 'Playhouse' was in reruns. The media circus that followed now seems wildly excessive. As Wolf explained, 'I always said to him, 'You didn't do anything wrong. In historical retrospect, this was an injustice that was a symptom of the media's emerging appetite for takedowns, and you were a casualty of that.'' But Reubens felt like a pariah and the documentary shows him struggling in near-solitude for months after the incident. He and Wolf never got to have a detailed discussion about this aftermath or how Reubens went on to put his life and career back together. The actor and the filmmaker had had a falling out during the making of 'Pee-wee as Himself,' again over editorial control, then reconciled. Reubens said he would give a final interview and, Wolf said, 'he trusted me and that he wasn't sure he'd be able to be as involved as he hoped.' Coming out of that conversation, Wolf felt he had the confidence he needed to continue the project. A week later, Reubens died of cancer, having kept his diagnosis a secret from nearly everyone except his closest confidants. Rubenfeld, who was among the few who knew Reubens was sick, said there were still times before he died that her brother would try to conceal the severity of his illness. 'Paul is an actor, and when I talked to him, you couldn't really tell if he was in a bad mood, unless he wanted you to. And you couldn't tell if he didn't feel well, unless he wanted you to,' she said. Wolf said he learned of Reubens' death on 'the day that everybody found out that Paul died,' through the news media coverage and the many sad, celebratory tributes that followed. For all the involvement that Reubens had wanted on the documentary, Wolf was left to finish it without him, using the interviews he had already conducted with Reubens and a haunting narration that Reubens had recorded for him in the final days of his life. Wolf knows that, without his intending it, 'Pee-wee as Himself' will be viewed as a grand summation of someone who never quite knew what to make of himself. 'As much as Paul had done work on himself through the various kinds of traumas and controversies he faced in the media, I don't think he necessarily could see himself in all of his complexity,' Wolf said. 'I think a lot of what I was asking Paul to do was to integrate different parts of himself, and that was very uncomfortable.' Wolf added, 'Paul started to recognize that I had a take on his story, and that he was OK with that take.' While his perspective on Reubens may endure or fade, what will stand over time, Wolf said, is Reubens' legacy as an artist and innovator who brought his offbeat sensibility to the widest possible audience, and who paid a price for doing so. 'I think there's consequences for being an experimental performance artist in a mainstream context,' Wolf said. 'Being avant-garde and being popular — those things don't always go together.'
