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12 hours ago
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- Daily Mail
EXCLUSIVE I hated being a mother - author Sarah Hoover shares postpartum depression battle on latest raw episode of The Life of Bryony podcast
Podcast All episodes An author shared her experience overcoming postpartum depression and psychosis on the latest episode of The Life of Bryony podcast. Sarah Hoover, a cultural critic, wrote the acclaimed memoir, The Motherload, offering a candid exploration of motherhood and marriage. Speaking to Daily Mail Columnist Bryony Gordon, the author recounted how a traumatic birth left her feeling 'strange' years after her son was born. 'I was having all these intrusive thoughts', the author said. 'This is the paradox: I hated being a mother at this stage. I thought I had ruined my life and that I didn't love my child. 'I didn't feel connected to him – and yet, every night I would have nightmares. Every night, I watched my son die. On some level, I cared so deeply. 'I was scared to walk downstairs with him. I thought if I took his pram out, a car would hit me, and he would be left all on his own and someone would take him. 'I had a jillion fears. I was constantly afraid.' The author admitted to using recreational drugs 'as a coping mechanism' to escape the shame of her lack of maternal feeling. Sarah remembered encouraging friends to bring her illicit substances instead of gifts at her baby shower. 'When I had postpartum depression, I partied so much. It was the only time I felt alive', Sarah told the podcast. 'I did not know what else to do. Looking back, I wish I had gone to therapy and got antidepressants. 'That didn't even occur to me – I thought the easiest path to feeling alive again was getting messed up. 'I felt agency over my body had been stripped from me. I am surprised I wasn't promiscuous and didn't cheat on my husband. 'It was like – this body has been through so much. It's been trashed. I am just going to keep going.' Sarah remembered developing feelings of resentment towards her partner, who she began to see as 'useless' in supporting her. 'There's no woman who's married to a man who feels like her husband is useful after they give birth', she said. 'The only other times I felt alive was when I was filled with rage while looking at my husband. 'He felt useless on purpose, and it was driving me nuts. He became a third child.' Sarah stressed that only by doing the 'hard work' of beginning a regimen of antidepressants and therapy was she able to shift her depression. 'It was a long road', she began. 'The first thing that helped was going on antidepressants. I went on SSRIs. I was scared to take them – but when I did, they gave me the ability to voice my intrusive thoughts. 'It helps to share all the dark stuff within you. It took two years of therapy and being on antidepressants, but I started to love parenting. 'There were years that I didn't feel connected to my child. It was a very long process, but it was totally worth it. 'It was the hardest work I could emotionally do, but doing it meant I now love my kid. That's a massive gift. 'Seeing the world through his eyes every day is the most fun I have ever had.' To hear the full episode featuring acclaimed author Sarah Hoover, search for The Life of Bryony now, wherever you get your podcasts. New episodes are released every Monday.
Yahoo
10-03-2025
- Entertainment
- Yahoo
Mastodon Recruit YouTube Guitarist Ben Eller for Tool Festival Set: Watch
The post Mastodon Recruit YouTube Guitarist Ben Eller for Tool Festival Set: Watch appeared first on Consequence. Mastodon tapped YouTuber and session guitarist Ben Eller to take over for founding member Brent Hinds during the band's set on Sunday (March 9th) at Tool's destination festival Tool in the Sand in Punta Cana, Dominican Republic. Eller appeared to step in on short notice after Mastodon announced that Hinds, the band's guitarist and co-vocalist for 25 years, was exiting the band on Friday. Get Mastodon Tickets Here For his first Mastodon set, Eller was tasked with the tall order of holding down Hinds' parts — including vocals — for a massive, career-spanning 17-song setlist. That included a handful of songs were played for the first time in five years or more ('Ember City,' 'Ghost of Karelia,' 'The Motherload,' etc.). Eller, who has more than a half-million YouTube subscribers, is already well-versed in Mastodon's material, with videos like 'Stuff Mastodon Does' (nearly 1 million views) and the more recent 'What I Learned from Mastodon.' That said, his performance was pretty impressive, considering the long set and a few deep cuts. Eller also displays his skills on his YouTube channel via his long-running guitar lesson series 'This Is Why You Suck at Guitar.' Additionally, he has provided session work for bands like Whitechapel, and he has performed with other acts such as the hair metal tribute Skankbanger and the Southern blues-rock outfit the Kennedy Wood Band. While no official announcement has been made, it appears that Eller could very well take over as Mastodon's touring guitarist for the time being, as the band has an extensive 2025 itinerary on the books. The veteran metal act's co-headlining tour with Coheed and Cambria kicks off in May, followed by a pair of UK dates supporting Slayer in July. Get tickets here. You can see audience footage of Eller performing with Mastodon below. Setlist: Pain With an Anchor Crystal Skull Black Tongue I Am Ahab Megalodon Ember City Tread Lightly Ghost of Karelia The Motherload The Crux Pushing the Tides More Than I Could Chew All the Heavy Lifting Spectrelight Mother Puncher Steambreather Blood and Thunder Mastodon Recruit YouTube Guitarist Ben Eller for Tool Festival Set: Watch Jon Hadusek Popular Posts Tool Apparently Booed for Disappointing Set at Their Own Festival Jon Stewart Calls Out Elon Musk for Flaking on The Daily Show Interview Faster Pussycat Singer's Fiancée Dies After Falling Overboard on '80s Cruise That Band Was Playing Dead Kennedys Legend Jello Biafra Joins Cavalera Onstage for "Nazi Trumps F**k Off": Watch Gene Hackman and Wife's Causes of Death Revealed Monty Python and the Holy Grail Returning to Theaters for 50th Anniversary Subscribe to Consequence's email digest and get the latest breaking news in music, film, and television, tour updates, access to exclusive giveaways, and more straight to your inbox.
