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The Guardian
2 days ago
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‘I'm carrying survivor's guilt': Raymond Antrobus on growing up deaf
When Raymond Antrobus was a child, he writes in his new book, The Quiet Ear, his father would call him 'white' when he was drunk, and 'black' when he was sober. 'White' was meant as an insult, the author explains over tea in his flat in Margate, where a pile of toys indicate the recent presence of his own young son. In his cruellest moments, it was a way for Antrobus's black father, who died in 2014, to say 'I don't understand you. I don't love you. You don't understand my pain.' Antrobus, 38, is calm and reflective when he talks about this. As a deaf person who relies on hearing aids and lip-reading to communicate, he says he has long had to 'make sense of myself for other people'. 'I got to this point where I was like: what would happen if I didn't have to do that? What does freedom look like for me?' It was writing poetry that got him to that place, and with that has come a great deal of critical acclaim: his first collection, The Perseverance, published in 2018, won the Rathbones Folio prize (now the Writers' prize), the Sunday Times young writer of the year award and the Ted Hughes award. That last felt somewhat ironic, given that The Perseverance contains a redacted version of Hughes's poem Deaf School, along with Antrobus's response, which grapples with its hurtful depiction of deaf children. In Hughes's poem, the students 'lacked a subtle wavering aura of sound' and are 'alert and simple'; Antrobus's poem After Reading Deaf School by the Mississippi River flips it: 'Ted is alert and simple. / Ted lacked a subtle wavering aura of sound'. Antrobus is driven by the desire to understand people and their motivations. His father's 'white' insult came from a projection of his insecurities about his own identity, he believes now. Born in rural Jamaica, the darkest-skinned of seven brothers, his father developed an 'ugly duckling' complex from a young age, and was sent to live with an aunt in Kingston when he was three. As a young adult, after his own father had moved to England, he was sent for, moving first to Wolverhampton and later London, where he met Antrobus's mother at a squatters' party. Both the poet's parents had other partners initially, and their relationship was marked by his father's disappearances, but it lasted in some way or another until Antrobus was four or five. At that point, the writer's grandmother stepped in to help look after him and his older sister. Even as a child, Antrobus could sense his father's complicated relationship with his homeland – after a visit to Jamaica 15 years after he had left, his father 'found that the place had changed so much and he couldn't relate to people in the same way. And then they started calling him white because he'd been away so long.' As well as being a second-generation Jamaican immigrant, on his white mother's side the writer is related to Sir Edmund Antrobus, an enslaver who owned plantations in Jamaica, British Guiana and St Kitts. 'It gives me this perspective, of my nation, of my language, which is always slightly like one foot on the land and one foot in the sea,' he says. He has researched the Antrobus lineage and visited the Cheshire village from which the name hails. 'Edmund Antrobus's wealth did not trickle down to my family or to the Antrobuses that are living there in Antrobus village. The wealth has been extracted' – those descendants are in South Africa and have been made even richer by 'diamond mine stuff', he says. 'It's just weird. Should I feel complicit in that?' The only way he has found to reckon with his own identity is through creativity. 'I've fought through it, I've felt through it,' he says, which led him to think: 'How can I bring other people into that?' His teaching work – Antrobus is a freelance poetry teacher and editor, and a board member at the Poetry School – was one way he has been able to help others. It has been a source of guilt that he hasn't been able to take on as much of that kind of work of late. He puts a lot of pressure on himself to 'give back'. 'I'm carrying survivor's guilt,' he says. Born in Hackney in 1986, he grew up attending a mixture of deaf and hearing schools, and was given specialised support in order to learn to speak, write, sign and lip-read effectively. 'I've been visiting deaf schools for a decade now, and I'm still yet to see provision that matched the care I got,' he says. Given the closures of deaf schools and cuts to provisions for deaf pupils made over the last three decades, to get the same level of support now 'I would have to be the child of an aristocrat'. And without that support, he probably wouldn't have been able to write. 'It blows my mind.' That's not to say that Antrobus had an easy ride: for a long while, in order to fit in, he resisted anything that would make him look more deaf. His parents – both hearing – never learned sign language, which his mother still feels guilty about. 'But it wasn't really just her fault,' the writer says. 'It was also me refusing it.' As a child, he was constantly trying to minimise the fact that he was deaf, whipping out his hearing aids whenever photos were taken and refusing to use the British Sign Language (BSL) he learned at school in front of the hearing children 'out of self-consciousness'. He learned ways to avoid bullying, joining both the deaf and hearing teams for football, athletics and swimming. 'That's what kind of saved me,' he says: the social status he was afforded by being good at sport gave him a free pass from the bullying he saw other, non-sporty deaf children experience. Having written three acclaimed poetry collections and two children's books – the first of which, Can Bears Ski?, became the first ever CBeebies bedtime story to be read in sign language, by deaf actor Rose Ayling-Ellis – Antrobus has now turned to writing adult prose. The Quiet Ear pays homage to Antrobus's teachers of the deaf, and sets out to show why deaf children deserve so much more support than they are currently receiving. The author describes it as 'memoir as advocacy', charting events in his own life while weaving in deaf history and a call to arms. It feels like a timely book, in an era when healthcare is in crisis and diversity and inclusion measures are under threat across the globe. Antrobus has firsthand experience of contending with 'anti-woke' culture in the US, having lived in Oklahoma with his then wife, who is American, for three years. It was ultimately the cost of private healthcare that drew the couple back to the UK when they were expecting their son, having been 'hit with a crazy bill'. They had initially planned to return after their son's birth, but worries about the US approach to 'healthcare, DEI, all of that stuff which sounds like science fiction' convinced them to stay in the UK, and though they have since separated, they continue to co-parent in Margate. Yet, though a preferable place to raise a child in some ways, the UK is still at 'primary school level' when thinking about disability in general, Antrobus says. He has been pleased to see some positive developments when it comes to deaf rights and awareness, such as Ayling-Ellis winning Strictly Come Dancing in 2021 and becoming a well-known public figure ('She is going to have an impact on the culture in the UK for ever') and the passing of the British Sign Language Act in 2022, which put BSL on course to become a recognised language. But he is disheartened by the government's proposed cuts to personal independence payments (Pips) for disabled people and the continued closure of deaf schools. Margate, where he has been living for the last year, has a 'significant deaf history', but the Royal School for Deaf Children in Margate, one of the oldest deaf schools in the UK, closed in 2015 with no replacement, and the Margate Deaf Club is no longer running. 'I haven't been able to access the deaf community here. It's dissipated. And that, I think, is an example of what is happening all over the country,' he says. 'There's more separation, isolation, hurdles to jump through.' Sign up to Bookmarks Discover new books and learn more about your favourite authors with our expert reviews, interviews and news stories. Literary delights delivered direct to you after newsletter promotion Such isolation can be fatal – as the author demonstrates in The Quiet Ear when he writes about a former classmate. Tyrone had worn bright blue hearing aids that he would sometimes pimp up with drawings and stickers, emboldening Antrobus to be more open about his own deafness, since 'the girls still really fancied' Tyrone. After leaving school, though, Tyrone lost contact with his deaf friends, struggled to assimilate into the hearing world, developed alcoholism and was arrested on domestic abuse charges. In prison, he did not have his hearing aids and was not referred for new ones after a counsellor deemed his communication to be 'fine without them'; he ultimately died by suicide in his cell. It is no wonder, then, that Antrobus feels so indebted to his teachers, to his mum, his mentors – to everyone who kept him off a path similar to Tyrone's. Now, when he meets people who don't feel 'properly deaf', he encourages them to embrace their identity and find a community – as when he was walking near his home recently and approached a man with a cochlear implant. After Antrobus said, 'Oh, my deaf friend, how are you doing?' and started signing to him, the man became 'stiff and anxious', explaining that he didn't know sign language. Exclusionary attitudes from signing deaf people had made this man feel that he wasn't welcome in deaf communities. Traditionally, there was an emphasis on what Antrobus refers to as 'capital 'D' Deaf people', who are culturally Deaf, 'sign as a first language and are engaged in deaf history and identity'. When the writer explained to this man that the deaf world is very open now, 'he started crying, and said, 'Thank you so much. I needed permission to be a deaf person.'' Antrobus's hope is that The Quiet Ear will give more deaf people that permission, and educate hearing people about what the community needs. When it comes to deaf and disability rights, 'we are at quite an interesting and, I hope, transitional, point', he says. He is encouraged by how many people are speaking out against the proposed changes to Pips and learning more about disability justice. 'It's good, it's giving people energy.' There will be a follow-up to The Quiet Ear, Antrobus says, 'about language, about voice, about class' – but not about deafness. In the meantime, he's hoping to work more in the art world, having been commissioned to create work for the Guggenheim and the Barbican. 'It challenges me to think in a new dimension,' he says. When we speak, he is just about to travel to Italy for a month-long residency at the esteemed Civitella Ranieri Foundation for artists and writers. 'It's exciting,' but there's also a part of him that is sad and anxious – this is the longest he has been away from his son. Antrobus clearly loves being a parent – at any mention of his three-year-old he becomes warmer, softer. But 'it is difficult, balancing work and parenting,' he says, acknowledging that by asking their son's mother to take care of him while Antrobus goes away for work he is 'giving her a weight'. He tries not to give too much time to other parenting worries, about how his son's sense of identity will be shaped by social media, or him growing up as a black child in a country that has recently had race riots. 'If I was to lean too much into that, I would go mad,' he says, but he hopes that his son will have 'a lot more certainty and grounding' about who he is than Antrobus had as a child. His son is hearing, though is learning to sign, and Antrobus 'would put money on him doing the BSL GCSE' when he is older. Antrobus himself is able to communicate better than ever, using SSE (sign supported English) and the help of hi-tech hearing aids that connect to his phone (he switched to a private audiology clinic after winning the Ted Hughes award). As a champion of the NHS 'going private was a guilt thing', yet having access to the latest models via private healthcare has meant he 'can relax a bit more', no longer having to rely on lip-reading as much. Antrobus is determined to make use of everything he has been given, to make work like The Quiet Ear, to keep advocating for better resources for deaf people. 'I've probably been given more than I've given back,' he says. 'So I owe the world a lot.' The Quiet Ear by Raymond Antrobus is published by Weidenfeld & Nicolson. To support the Guardian order your copy from Delivery charges may apply.
New York Times
23-07-2025
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- New York Times
A Deaf Actress Has a Message She Wants You to Hear
When Rose Ayling-Ellis is lip reading, she's guessing most of the time. 'You can get the shape of a mouth,' she said recently, but to understand what someone is saying, context is everything. 'You have to pick up body language, the mood, the vibe,' she said. Ayling-Ellis, 30, said that learning to lip read had been 'a survival technique.' The actress, who was born deaf, speaks and also uses British Sign Language, and was aided in an interview by an interpreter. In the TV crime thriller 'Code of Silence,' which arrives on Britbox on July 24, Ayling-Ellis plays a deaf woman who is recruited by the police to eavesdrop discreetly. In the show, as in life, she said, lip reading is 'like a puzzle.' When Ayling Ellis's character, Alison, watches CCTV footage of suspected gang members, she scrutinizes their facial expressions and observes how they stand. Like any good detective, Alison must study the scene, piecing together clues. In a clever visual conceit, jumbled subtitles appear onscreen and gradually unscramble as she decodes each sentence. 'Code of Silence' first screened on ITV in Britain in May, and its debut episode drew over six million viewers, according to the broadcaster. Ayling-Ellis was already known to many from 'Strictly Come Dancing,' the wildly popular BBC show that inspired the 'Dancing With the Stars' franchise. She won the show in 2021 with a routine, to Clean Bandit and Zara Larsson's 'Symphony,' that fell silent halfway to mirror her experience of being deaf. That victory made her a household name and landed her TV presenting gigs, including as a sportscaster at the 2024 Paralympic Games. But after being 'on the TV as myself quite a few times,' she said, she wanted to get back to acting. Want all of The Times? Subscribe.
Daily Mail
20-05-2025
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- Daily Mail
Don't put our Rose in danger, she's a national treasure in the making: CHRISTOPHER STEVENS reviews last night's TV
Code Of Silence ITV1 Tolerant and slow to anger though we are, the British public can never excuse some evils. Cruelty to puppies is one. Sneering at the late Queen is another. But most reprehensible of all, a crime beyond forgiveness, is being horrid to Rose Ayling-Ellis. Craig Revel Horwood found this out to his cost on Strictly Come Dancing in 2021, when he was the only judge not to award Rose the full ten points for her semi-final waltz with Giovanni Pernice. Craig gave her a measly nine, and was roundly castigated from all quarters. Actor Andrew Buchan is likely to find himself shunned in the street for his performance as crabby DI James Marsh, in Code Of Silence. We can tell he's a martinet and a bully from the moment he gives her a condescending smile, before telling colleagues she isn't up to the job. How dare he?! Our lovely Rose, so diffident and naive, yet dauntlessly brave? He ought to consider himself jolly lucky to have her on the team. The job in question is lip-reading for a police surveillance unit, stalking a gang of robbers suspected of planning a heist on a jewel vault. Rose plays dinner lady Alison, plucked from the police canteen to watch covert video footage and decode what the robbers are saying. Writer Catherine Moulton shows, without labouring the point, how police and catering bosses alike imagine Alison must be a bit thick, because she's deaf. They talk down to her and begin with the assumption that she'll struggle with whatever they ask of her, whether that's serving an oat milk latte or identifying the target of a multi-million-pound robbery. Even the officer who first spots her potential, DS Francis (Charlotte Ritchie), treats her as an appealing but innocent child. Alison is never bitter, but the frustration sometimes shows through. 'I don't want to be hearing,' she complains to her mother (Fifi Garfield), 'I just want other people to be a bit deaf.' It's easy to believe that, fed up of being underestimated, Alison will take reckless risks to prove herself useful. These include getting a job as a barmaid at a pub owned by the chief villain (Joe Absolom), and chatting up the gang's computer hacker, Liam (Kieron Moore). This is no hardship, since Liam clearly fancies the socks off her, and can't believe his luck that she'll even talk to him — especially after he knocks her off her bike. What he doesn't know, of course, is that she was trying to tail his car at the time. Charming and a bit goofy though he is, Liam is part of a vicious gang. The moment last night at the end of the second episode, when he and his boss caught Alison spying on them over the pub's CCTV, was genuinely alarming. She's our Rose, a national treasure in the making. We don't want to see her in any worse jeopardy than a dodgy cha-cha-cha.
