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6 hours ago
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Kid Cudi breaks his silence on mental health struggles in fearless new memoir
Kid Cudi has released a memoir that explores the toughest moments of his life, detailing the struggles behind his rise to fame and his journey back to self. Image: Facebook Kid Cudi isn't holding anything back in his highly anticipated new memoir, 'Cudi: The Memoir'. The Grammy-winning rapper, actor and designer - born Scott Mescudi - delves into some of the most challenging periods of his life, revealing the struggles that accompanied his rise to fame and how he ultimately found a path back to himself. Published by Simon & Schuster, the memoir is a raw and fearless account of survival through depression, addiction, isolation and self-doubt. In his own words, Cudi charts a deeply personal journey, offering hard-earned lessons on vulnerability, reinvention and the courage to keep moving forward even in the darkest times. For years, Cudi has been open about his mental health, but the book takes that honesty to a new level. It tells the story of a kid from Cleveland who found purpose amid the darkness and emerged as a guiding light for a generation of listeners. Across a trailblazing career, Cudi transformed pain into poetry, producing anthems like 'Day 'N' Nite', 'Pursuit of Happiness' and 'Mr. Rager'. His music gave a voice to the unheard and hope to those feeling unseen. Yet behind the soaring success, he was quietly unravelling. Video Player is loading. Play Video Play Unmute Current Time 0:00 / Duration -:- Loaded : 0% Stream Type LIVE Seek to live, currently behind live LIVE Remaining Time - 0:00 This is a modal window. Beginning of dialog window. Escape will cancel and close the window. Text Color White Black Red Green Blue Yellow Magenta Cyan Transparency Opaque Semi-Transparent Background Color Black White Red Green Blue Yellow Magenta Cyan Transparency Opaque Semi-Transparent Transparent Window Color Black White Red Green Blue Yellow Magenta Cyan Transparency Transparent Semi-Transparent Opaque Font Size 50% 75% 100% 125% 150% 175% 200% 300% 400% Text Edge Style None Raised Depressed Uniform Dropshadow Font Family Proportional Sans-Serif Monospace Sans-Serif Proportional Serif Monospace Serif Casual Script Small Caps Reset restore all settings to the default values Done Close Modal Dialog End of dialog window. Advertisement Next Stay Close ✕ Ad loading "Cudi: The Memoir" is a raw and fearless account of survival through depression, addiction, isolation and self-doubt. Image: Supplied In a recent appearance on the 'Call Her Daddy' podcast on Wednesday, August 13, Cudi spoke candidly about hitting rock bottom and seeking help through rehab. He reflected on a period between 2015 and 2016 when he relapsed, admitting, 'It was like the decline was getting just darker and darker and darker. And, um, suicide was on my mind like all the time. Like I would daydream about this s***, you know?' The relapse, he explained, was a harsh reality check. 'I thought I was past it, but obviously I wasn't,' he said. 'That was f*** me up. I felt like I was going in circles. People don't want to keep seeing you be a f***** up. You've got to get your life together. You're not in your 20s anymore.' It was this wake-up moment that led him to rehab, and Cudi credits that decision with saving his life. 'Ever since then, I haven't been like this before. Yeah, I get down sometimes, but I get over it. Before, something bad would hit me and I'd be miserable for weeks. Since 2016, I've been a thousand times better.' Cudi also shared a personal moment with his wife, Lola Abecassis Sartore. He recalled an incident from 2010 when he was arrested - a story he had long seen as a 'dent in (his) armour.' Reading a news article about it aloud with Sartore, she laughed, and in that moment, Cudi said he 'found peace' with something he had carried for years. 'Cudi: The Memoir' is Mescudi's most intimate work yet - a candid exploration of pain, triumph and self-discovery from an artist who has inspired millions.
News18
a day ago
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Kid Cudi Says Rehab ‘Saved My Life' After Relapse And Mental Health Crisis
Kid Cudi, whose real name is Scott Ramon Seguro Mescudi, believes something terrible could have happened if he had not sought help and gone to Rehab. Kid Cudi has opened up about his mental health struggles like never before. The rapper, who gave hits like Pursuit of Happiness, revealed the painful past when he was fighting a battle only a few knew about. He also reflected on the moments when he hit 'rock bottom," and the moment he decided to seek help and go to Rehab. During the recent episode of Call Her Daddy, Cudi, the author of the new book Cudi: The Memoir, looked back at the time between 2015 and 2016 when everything came crashing down. 'I relapsed and started using again," he said, adding, 'It was like the decline getting just darker and darker and darker. And um, suicide was on my mind like all the time. Like I would like daydream about this s—, you know?" When Kid Cudi Decided To Go To Rehab The reality hit him hard. It had been six years since he last used and he thought that chapter of his life was over. 'I was like, damn, I thought I was past that — and I'm obviously not," he admitted. Cudi continued, 'People don't want to keep seeing you be a f—up. You got to get your life together, bro. You're not in your 20s no more." Soon after he realised the harsh truth, he decided to go to rehab, a decision which, according to him, saved his life. Looking back, Cudi, whose real name is Scott Ramon Seguro Mescudi, believes something terrible could have happened if he had not sought help. 'Ever since then, I haven't been like — yeah, I get down about some things, but I get over it. Before, something bad would happen and I'd be miserable for weeks. Since 2016, I've been like a thousand times better," explained Cudi. Kid Cudi's Difficult Rehab Journey However, Cudi's rehab journey was not without difficulties. While watching TV in the rehab centre, he suffered a stroke and, recalling the incident, he shared, 'I was watching TV in the rehab center and my vision got crossed. Like when you cross your eyes and how it looks. It was like that, but my eyes weren't crossed." The next day, his speech and movements slowed and later, doctors confirmed it was a stroke. He was told his age worked in his favor and if it had happened to him in his 40s, the result might have been different. Cudi's new memoir, Cudi: The Memoir, dives deeper into these moments, encapsulating his journey through depression, addiction, self-doubt and the courage to keep going. First Published: August 14, 2025, 13:36 IST Disclaimer: Comments reflect users' views, not News18's. Please keep discussions respectful and constructive. Abusive, defamatory, or illegal comments will be removed. News18 may disable any comment at its discretion. By posting, you agree to our Terms of Use and Privacy Policy.
Yahoo
a day ago
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Kid Cudi Didn't Want to Testify in Diddy Trial, But ‘I Knew I Was Helping Cassie'
Kid Cudi sat down with CBS News' Anthony Mason to speak on his recently released autobiography, Cudi: The Memoir, and was asked about his much publicized testimony during the Diddy trial. 'It was really hard. I didn't want to do it,' he answered after being asked how hard it was for him to testify. 'I got subpoenaed and I knew I was helping Cassie and I just wanted to be there for her and help her out. It was a tough situation.' More from Billboard Kid Cudi Opens Up About His Fractured Relationship With Ye: 'It's a Sad Thing' Tyler, The Creator Has Had Enough of Timothée Chalamet in Fiery 'Marty Supreme' Trailer: Watch Charli xcx Explains Why People Are 'Envious' of Addison Rae He then added that he felt backlash from fans on social media and friends in his personal life for taking the stand even though he's never associated himself or made music about street life. 'The backlash was swift,' Cudi admitted. 'I had a lot of people that supported me, but there were a few that were — you know — had some opinions about it. It was interesting because I'm not no street dude. I don't live by no code, you know? I guess it's because I'm a rapper, people just threw that on me. But, like, my music has never been about that and I have never tried to pretend I was about that. I'm from the suburbs, baby, you know what I'm sayin'? Straight up.' Adding, 'But I ain't let it faze me, so I know I was doing the right thing. F— 'em, you know. Let those mother—-ers think whatever they want.' And when it finally came to actually being on the stand, Cudi said that the experience was a 'weird' one. 'It was weird, man, because that was the first time I had seen him in a while,' he said. 'We made eye contact a couple times. It was f—king weird, but I'm glad I got through it. Got it behind me. I know I did the right thing, so that's all that matters.' Elsewhere in the interview, the Ohio rapper was asked about his broken friendship with Ye (formerly known as Kanye West) and said that his former collaborator 'said some things that there's no coming back from.' Cudi: The Memoir was released on Tuesday, Aug. 12 and is available wherever books are sold. You can watch the full conversation below. Best of Billboard Chart Rewind: In 1989, New Kids on the Block Were 'Hangin' Tough' at No. 1 Janet Jackson's Biggest Billboard Hot 100 Hits H.E.R. & Chris Brown 'Come Through' to No. 1 on Adult R&B Airplay Chart Solve the daily Crossword
USA Today
a day ago
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- USA Today
Kid Cudi says Cassie was Diddy's 'prisoner', recalls a 'salty' Kanye in new book
Kid Cudi may be the "Man on the Moon," but he's revealing the peaks and valleys of his life on Earth to fans in a new book. The rapper, actor and fashion designer born Scott Mescudi opens up about his early career, substance abuse struggles and redemption in "Cudi: The Memoir" (out now, Simon & Schuster), a raw look at an artist known for moody introspection and vulnerability. In "Cudi," Mescudi delves into his Cleveland upbringing and bopping around New York City in his early career during the blog-era rap scene. The book also features stories about his famous friends in music, film and fashion, including his bond with late Louis Vuitton director Virgil Abloh, falling outs with Shia LaBeouf and Drake, and a turbulent period with Casandra "Cassie" Ventura Fine and Sean "Diddy" Combs. For fans of his music, the memoir includes the inception of some of his biggest songs and projects, including breakout hits "Day 'N' Nite" and "Pursuit of Happiness" and collaborations with Kanye "Ye" West. For admirers of his acting and style, he details his introduction into Hollywood with projects like HBO's "How to Make It In America" and Members of the Rage, his brand that debuted at Paris Fashion Week in 2023. But more than anything, Mescudi's memoir details the darkness that followed him as he became a household name, and how he pulled himself out of depression and addiction, and grew to recognize and appreciate his influence in music as an advocate for mental health. Kid Cudi overdosed during the making of 'Man on the Moon II' Mescudi explores his inner sorrow, which started from a young age following the death of his father. The rapper attempted suicide as a teen, after his first love coldly broke up with him. He recalled swallowing about 12 Tylenol pills and calling his friends, who called the police. He was taken to a hospital and had his stomach pumped, and was moved to the psychiatric wing for several days. Mescudi craved fame and recognition from a young age, but was disappointed when he got it to realize all of his issues were not solved. "There was a lot of anger inside me that came from the Kid Cudi experience not aligning with the vision in my mind," he writes. "I always imagined success as a magic bullet for all my problems." He details the highs and lows of various romantic relationships and drug use as a crutch or to fill a void, but to no relief. He writes he started using cocaine around 2009, after the creation of his debut album "Man on the Moon: The End of Day." By his second album, 2010's "Man on the Moon II: The Legend of Mr. Rager," he was doing multiple lines of cocaine while recording. He says the habit pushed him creatively and numbed the stress that came with overnight fame, but affected his relationships. Following a 2010 arrest, Mescudi quit cocaine use for several years. He went through a two-week relapse in 2016, describing it as a faster means of "relief" and "solace" from the loneliness of fame. The "unsustainable" highs were followed by suicidal ideation, dangerous behavior and a mini-stroke. He would self-enter rehab for cocaine, marijuana and alcohol, saying the experience strengthened his relationship with God and provided "a level of peace ... I hadn't felt ever in my life." Mescudi began smoking again months later, but has been cocaine-free since. Kid Cudi recalls Kanye collaborations, antics at Virgil Abloh's funeral Mescudi recalls meeting Kanye "Ye" West by chance at the Virgin Megastore in New York City's Union Square. He said run-ins with the rapper and his team eventually led to a creative partnership and the Cleveland native being signed to West's G.O.O.D. Music. Some of their most noteworthy collaborations on West's "808s & Heartbreak" and Jay-Z's "Blueprint 3" track "Already Home" came from a weekslong stint in Hawaii, with Mescudi recalling writing the hook for the latter track in 10 minutes. Mescudi called their relationship at the time "polar synchronicity," though he long made it a point to differentiate himself from the "Power" rapper, not wanting to be labeled a "sidekick." For their collaborative 2017 album "Kids See Ghosts," he felt they were on the same page as they were both coming out of dark times and wanted an "uplifting" album, since Mescudi was post-rehab and Ye was going through a public mental health situation. Mescudi recalls this moment as a "test" to see if it would bring people back to his music since he was standing next to West, while maintaining his discography stands on its own. By 2021, their relationship soured, though Mescudi doesn't mention the exact moment it fell apart. When Off-White founder Virgil Abloh died in 2021, Mescudi recalls Ye holding up the funeral to sign autographs. Ye had also fallen out with Abloh, and when he tried to speak during the service, the pastor refused, leaving the rapper "salty" and complaining about it in public rants for years. Kid Cudi gives new details on Cassie and Diddy In May, Mescudi testified in the sex-crimes trial of Sean "Diddy" Combs, recalling the turbulent time in 2011 and 2012 when his relationship with Cassie was followed by a break-in and damage to his car. The rapper calls the situation the "wildest" thing. Mescudi provides new details in the memoir, including when Combs discovered he was in a relationship with Cassie and they fled to Connecticut with Mescudi stationing security outside Cassie's family home while he stayed with her. Following a 2012 explosion in which Mescudi's Porsche was set on fire, he made a police report and followed up, but says it "disappeared" and officers "didn't return my calls." And when the rapper met up with the Bad Boy Records founder, he felt like he "won" after Combs denied involvement. "Man, you can't even be a G and just say, 'Yeah, I did that. Do something.' I would have respected that." Mescudi and Cassie's relationship came at a time when he was still madly in love with an ex-girlfriend, he says, noting a long-term relationship "never felt possible." Still, he was "pissed at Cassie for going back to" Combs. "But over time I realized she was a prisoner," he writes. "I just prayed one day she would be free." Kid Cudi takes the stand in Diddy trial: What he revealed, from car explosion to his dog Mescudi on meeting now-wife Lola Abecassis Sartore Mescudi details the ins and outs of various tumultuous relationships, but none seem to bring him the sense of ease and peace that his wife Lola Abecassis Sartore does. He recalls first seeing her at Abloh's Louis Vuitton fashion show in 2017, where he walked right up to the menswear designer and asked for her number, without even knowing her name. Their relationship started out as a friendship until he began to seriously court her in 2022. He proposed in Kyoto, Japan, that year with a custom 11-carat diamond platinum ring. The couple married earlier this year. Abecassis Sartore came at a time when he was "not needing a relationship as a crutch, but more as a bonus in my life. "The only piece that I was missing was a companion. She was not only the perfect companion, but she was peace in my life that I just hadn't felt with a woman before," he writes. "I love every little quirk about her. She inspires me; she lifts me; she supports me in every single endeavor I have … She's a master in her craft, so it's like I found my equal in creativity too." Kid Cudi ties the knot with Lola Abecassis Sartore during wedding in South of France Kid Cudi on his influence: 'My music will always help people' Known for his gloomy, cross-genre hits, Mescudi's pioneering legacy as one of the most vulnerable artists in hip-hop has been solidified. One of his biggest tracks, "Pursuit of Happiness," was initially meant as a warning against finding satisfaction in drugs and alcohol, but he later embraced the joy it brought people. He approached later projects like "Speedin' Bullet 2 Heaven" and "Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin'" with the same desire to be a guide to younger fans. "Kids needed to hear someone authentically and openly dealing with their most toxic baggage," he writes. Reflecting on his impact after nearly two decades in music, Mescudi says his music "opened the door for generations of nonconforming artists .... I was touching people, and my music will always help people to the end of time." Reflecting on his 40th birthday, a "milestone that felt so very far out of reach," Mescudi considers his impact. "It wasn't the fame that brought me to my nirvana; it was all the wonderful, sincere people who my music led into my life," he said. "And all my time searching for life in outer space, I never thought I'd find peace and love on Earth." If you or someone you know is struggling with mental and/or substance use disorders, you can call the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration's free and confidential treatment referral and information service at 1-800-662-HELP (4357). It's available 24/7 in English and Spanish (TTY: 1-800-487-4889). If you or someone you know may be struggling with suicidal thoughts, you can call 988 any time day or night, or chat online. Crisis Text Line also provides free, 24/7, confidential support via text message to people in crisis when they dial 741741.
Yahoo
2 days ago
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Kid Cudi Says He Knows He Did ‘The Right Thing' Testifying Against Diddy: ‘That's All That Matters'
"I had a lot of people that supported me, but there were a few that had some opinions about it," the rapper says of the backlash Kid Cudi has opened up about his experience testifying against Sean 'Diddy' Combs, calling the ordeal 'really hard' but insisting that he still believes it was the right thing to do. In honor of his new book, 'Cudi: The Memoir,' the rapper — whose real name is Scott Mescudi — sat down for an interview with 'CBS Mornings.' The interview was released Wednesday, a little less than three months after Cudi took the stand against Diddy. More from TheWrap Kid Cudi Says He Knows He Did 'The Right Thing' Testifying Against Diddy: 'That's All That Matters' | Video Joe Jonas Leaks 'Camp Rock 3' Plans to Get Out of 'Hot Ones' Wing Challenge: 'Sorry Disney!' Taylor Swift Reveals Title of Her 12th Album, 'The Life of a Showgirl' Bobby Whitlock, Derek and the Dominos Founder of 'Layla' Fame and 'Exile on Main St.' Session Player,' Dies at 77 'It was really hard. I didn't want to do it. I got subpoenaed,' the rapper said of being a witness in the Diddy trial. 'It was weird, man, because that was the first time I had seen him in a while. We made eye contact a couple times.' Cudi briefly dated Cassie Ventura, the singer who testified that Diddy had abused, blackmailed and trafficked her during their turbulent, years-long relationship. During his testimony, Cudi alleged that Diddy had been abusive to Cassie and that the music industry mogul broke into his house after he found out he and Cassie were dating. Cudi also told the court he believed Diddy later set his car on fire. After he realized that he would have to testify, Cudi told 'CBS Mornings' that it was the support his testimony would provide Cassie that helped him get through the experience. 'I knew I was helping Cassie. I just wanted to be there and help her out,' he explained. 'I know I did the right thing, so that's all that matters.' The rapper also addressed the backlash he received from some of Diddy's supporters for speaking out against him. 'I had a lot of people that supported me, but there were a few that had some opinions about it,' Cudi acknowledged. 'It was interesting because I'm not no street dude. I don't live by no code, you know? So I guess it's because I'm a rapper. People just threw that on me. But, like, my music has never been about that and I have never tried to pretend I was about that.' In July, Combs' trial ended with him being found not guilty of the federal sex trafficking and racketeering charges against him. He was, however, found guilty of of the prostitution charges against him, each of which carry a maximum potential prison sentence of 10 years. Despite a release motion filed by his defense team, Diddy has been ordered to remain in federal detention until his sentencing hearing, which is scheduled for Oct. 3. You can watch Cudi's interview in the video above. The post Kid Cudi Says He Knows He Did 'The Right Thing' Testifying Against Diddy: 'That's All That Matters' | Video appeared first on TheWrap.
