When I found myself caught up in a double life, you helped me find a way out

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21 hours ago

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THANK YOU When I found myself caught up in a double life, you helped me find a way out
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DEAR DEIDRE: THANK you for helping me untangle the double life that was destroying me bit by bit.
When I first wrote to you, I was 45 and completely exhausted.
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I was juggling two lives – one with my girlfriend and our two young sons during the week and another with my wife and daughter every other weekend. Neither woman knew about the other.
To outsiders, I seemed like a man with a demanding job in the city, balancing family and work. The truth was far messier.
My wife, who I'd been married to for 15 years, came from a culture where divorce is heavily stigmatised. We hoped having a child would fix things between us, but it didn't.
Years of unhappiness led me to take a job over 200 miles away. That's when I met my girlfriend online.
She had everything that my marriage lacked – she was warm, funny, and kind.
When she became pregnant, I made the choice to live with her. But I never properly ended my old life. I didn't know how to.
By the time I reached out to you, I had two little boys I adored, a woman I loved, and a growing mountain of lies.
My daughter, then nearly 10, was starting to ask questions. I barely slept. I was snapping at everyone and hated the man I'd become.
You made it clear these secrets couldn't last forever and that my children deserved to hear the truth from me – not find it out in ways that would break their trust.
You also reminded me that staying in a toxic marriage wasn't helping anyone.
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You encouraged me to come clean with my wife and get support. I contacted a counsellor through Tavistock Relationships (www.tavistockrelationships.org, 020 7380 1960) who helped us navigate the transition.
With your advice, I stopped spiralling. I found a way forward that considered everyone's wellbeing – not just my guilt.
My wife and I began the process of separation and have now officially divorced. It was painful, but also freeing.
Your support pack Worried About Mum and Dad helped me talk to my daughter and protect our relationship through the changes.
After years of stress and deception, I finally feel like I've become the father and man I want to be – to all my children.
I still have a long road ahead, but at least I'm no longer living a lie.
Thank you.
DEIDRE SAYS: I'm so glad you reached out and shared your story. Living a double life can be incredibly stressful, but by opening up, you took the crucial first step toward honesty and healing.
Your situation is one many people find themselves in, especially when cultural pressures make separation feel impossible.
Keeping secrets often causes more harm than good, especially for children, who pick up on tensions even when adults try to hide them.
By choosing to be honest and seeking support, you've given your children and yourself a chance at healthier, happier, more trusting relationships.
Your story also highlights why it's so important to face difficult truths sooner rather than later.
Avoiding the conversation might feel easier at the time, but it only prolongs the pain and uncertainty for everyone involved. Open communication, even when it's hard, lays the groundwork for healing and rebuilding trust within families and relationships.
There is no perfect way to end something, but there is a responsible one, and you've now started down that path.